Honestly daw oh!!
This shit is swimming with honesty Pack Que!! This is one of the MOST BORING WEEK EVER SINCE I HAVE NOTHING PLANNED. Kim is in boracay, ryan is attending lessons kate and veronica and the rest of the dudes and guys and gays are lost or missing and im hating najee AND WORST OF IT ALL, I have no moolah… ;’[ not a happy chick right now so im killing time and myself with these hypersuperdiapoathetic surverys and shits.. aaaaaaarrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhh

Honestly, what's on your mind?:
*kill myself

Honestly, who are you chatting online with?:
*no one, im mad at him fucker

Honestly, what is it that you REALLY should be doing right now?
*type mom’s nclex review ahaha…

Honestly, have you brushed your teeth today?:
*nope..

Honestly, are you a good friend?:
*I guess I am…

Honestly, do you really think going to school is all that important?:
*yeah bastard.. Think my parents would spend bucks for nothing?!

Honestly, what did you dream about last night?
* I didn’t dream.. I had a nightmare

Honestly, what are your dreams about mostly?:
*stuffs

Honestly, what are you so happy about right now?
*nothing… im bored

Honestly, what are you so sad about right now?:
*I have no money and im stuck in this cell prison

Honestly, how old are you now?:
*16

Honestly, who are you missing?:
*aris lopez

Honestly, have you ever stolen something?:
*sure

Honestly, what song are you listening to right now?
*sponge cola and hale

Honestly, who do you want to meet at this very moment?
*rico yan

Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
*no.. hate wouldn’t be enough


Honestly, who do you wanna hug right now?
*a huge stuff toy.. person? Uhm.. haha

Honestly, are you bored?
*oo nga eh! Nyetumss kulet!!

Honestly, who do you wanna slap right now?
*ah… haha pau and raph


You are:
[x] tall
[ ] in between
[ ] short

[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[ ] (used to be dirty blonde) brunette
[ ] dirty blonde
[x] black
[x] Brown

[ ] blue-eyed
[X] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray eyed

[x] glasses
[x] contacts
[ ] braces
[ ] freckles
[ ] piercings
[ ] tatoos

[x] long hair
[ ] short hair
[ ] med. Hair

Your nationality includes..
[x] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[ ] italian
[ ] scottish
[x] filipino
[ ] armenian
[ ] (2 types) dutch
[ ] french
[ ] german
[ ] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portugeese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] Native American
[ ] Russian
[ ] British
[ ] African
[x] spanish
[ ] hungarian
[ ] English
[ ] swedish

Your favorite color(s) are?
[x] red
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[ ] green
[x] blue
[ ] white
[x] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange

Some sports/physical things you have done seriously?
[ ] soccer
[x] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[x] Basketball
[ ] volleyball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[ ] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[ ] camping
[ ] horseback riding
[ ] tennis
[ ] foosball

Your personality is sometimes...
[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[ ] shy
[x] funny
[ ] serious
[x] bubbly
[ ] spazzy
[x] fun loving
[ ] laid back
[ ] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird

The music you like is?
[ ] rap
[x] rock
[x] pop
[ ] country
[ ] hiphop
[ ] r&b
[x] slow jams
[ ] Christian(rock)
[x] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[ ] punk
[ ] metal
[ ] reggae
[ ] Goth
[ ] Latin
[ ] hardcore
[ ] jazz

The pets you have had?
[ ] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[x] rat/hamster
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[x] fish
[ ] ducks
[ ] chickens
[ ] horse (sorrrrry, pangmayaman. hahaha)

Clothes you like to wear are?
[x] plain tshirts
[ ] sweatshirts
[ ] stockings
[x] high heels
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[ ] pj pants
[x] boxers
[x] underwear
[ ] dresses
[ ] mini skirts
[x] long skirts
[x] watches
[ ] hoop earring(s)
[ ] toe socks
[x] flip flops
[ ] halter tops
[ ] stilletos
[ ] band shirts
[x] shorts
[x] cute earring(s)
How do you like to wear your hair?
[x] down
[x] ponytail
[x] pigtails
[x] messy bun
[x] half ponytail
[ ] scrunched/curly
[X] bun
[ ] crimped
[ ] with a bandana
[x] French braids
[x] lots of little braids
[ ] Gel
[ ] Hat ( depends which ones hehe )


You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[ ] hyper
[ ] happy
[ ] everything
[x] I hate labels
[x] i have no idea
[ ] crazy as hell

You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[ ] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[x] a lot of carbs
[x] meat;
[x] salad
[ ] sushi

A typical Saturday night...
[ ] mall with friends
[ ] partying
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[x] staying home
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun
[ ] WORKING
[ ] grounded (lol)
[ ] youth group

Currently you are...
[ ]in a relationship
[x] single and lovin it
[x] crushing
[ ] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up. . . and so sad about it.

Online, you use:
[ ] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] =D
[ ] lmao
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[ ] jk
[ ] ttyl
[ ] lylas/lylab (?)
[ ] g2g
[ ] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] ^_^ or 0_o
[x] haha

Did you like this survey?
[ ] TOTALLY!!!!
[ ] no!
[ ] it was ok
[x] it was something to do


1.for the record, state your whole name.
.:: maria Jacqueline reyes frias licup haha. swanget

2. natatandaan mo ba kung sino first crush mo?
.:: oo naman


3. what's his/her name?
.::. I forgot haha..laboh

4. nalaman ba nyang crush mo siya?
.:: yep, boyfriend siya ng kapatid ng mommy ko and they didn’t let me get away with it!! Grrrr…

5. saang skul ka grumaduate?
.:: holy family academy

6. what instrument do you play?
.:: recorder and keyboard

7. sa tingin mo rockstar ka ba?
.:: nyeta anong tanong ‘to ha?

8. can you sing in front of a crowd
.:: if I get paid

9. do you believe in superstition?
.:: pake mo?!

10. e love at first sight?
.:: hindi, im blind eh

11. cnu crush mo ngayon?
.:: c zanjoe marudo haha. Honestly c Yael and Christian Bautista

12. ilan na naging ex mo?
.:: one (hundred?)

13. sinong fave mong ex?
.:: gago ka ba?? Wala hindi siya tao eh, sorry

14 alam ba nila mga nangyayari sa buhay mo after you broke up?
.:: I don’t know but maybe

15e ikaw, alam mu ba nangyayari sa buhay buhay nila after you broke up?
.:: no

16. can you write? as in poetries and such?
.:: yes… im going to be a writer someday

17. what's the sweetest gift you ever gave?
.:: uhm..malay… mushy letters na puno ng ewan

18. e you ever received?
.:: big boxes of chocolates with huge flowers

19. whom was it from?
.:: wag na’

20. anu fave subject mo sa skul?
.:: library period.. haha history at english

21. what's your worst highschool memory?
.:: second year amputtss

22. what's your deepest and darkest secret?
.:: gago ka ba??

23. cnu-cno circle of friends mo?
.:: sorry… hindi sila circle… malamang rectangle

24. cno bestfriend mo?
.:: ahhaa.. sarili ko, schizophrenic ako

25. have you ever fallen in love with a close friend?
.:: I like to think na hindi haha.. nope!! never

26. have you ever regretted doing something during your highschool life?
.:: yes at yun ay ang pumatol sa isang HAYOP

27. may kinakarir ka ba ngayon romantically?
.:: kinarir?? Hindi ako artista eh…

28 do you appreciate poetries?
.:: ofcourse.. poet ako eh

29 have you ever gave a poem to someone?
.:: nope,,, nanakawan ng poem na binigay to someone else, oo

30 rate yourself. 1 being the lowest and 10 being highest?
.:: puccha gago ka talaga noh??! Nakadrugs ka atah! Ulul!!

SPECIAL FIRST

1. 1st time you tried smoking:-- NEVER
2. 1st alcoholic drink you had:-- BEER… AND IT WAS HORRIBLE!!
3. 1st time you entered a bar:-- UHMM…. WHEN I WAS IN FIRST YEAR I THINK
4. 1st award you received:-- I DON’T REMEMBER
5. 1st hero:-- DAD
6. 1st time you were sent to the principal for disciplinary actions:-- HAHA… I LIED AND TOLD MY MOM IM STAYING LATE AT SCHOOL AND THEN MOM WENT TO THE SCHOOL AND THE SCHOOL OFFICIALS WERE GOING BERSERK BECAUSE IT WAS ALREADY MIDNIGHT AND WE WERE JUST 6TH GRADERS THEN!!
7. 1st goal you accomplished:-- I DUNNO, NONE YET
8. 1st crush?—BOYFRIEND OF MOM’S SISTER
9. 1st person whom you gave flowers:-- AWW… MY GRADE SCHOOL CRUSH [IT WAS A PINK GUMAMELA]
10.1st friend:-- JOHN ENZO…
11.1st kiss:-- GRADE SCHOOL
12. 1st record you bought:-- SPONGECOLA!! TWAS THE ORIGINAL ONE
13. 1st song you sang infront of many people:-- WORLD CULTURE’S DAY IN SCHOOL
14. first musical instrument you learned to play:-- RECORDER
15. 1st local&foreign concert you watched:-- LOCAL? FREESTYLE FOREIGN? UHM HAHA
16. 1st celebrity you saw in person:-- I DON’T REMEMBER
17. 1st TV show you really liked:-- CARTOONS
18.1st buk u bought:-- COLORING BOOK
19. 1st sport you played:-- BASKETBALL
20. 1st sleepover:-- MY COUSIN’S HOUSE!!
21. 1st terrible fight:-- WITH CARYL… WE WERE IN SCHOOL AND BREAKING EVERY THING WE GET OUR HANDS WITH
22. 1st inaanak (first godchild?):-- OOHH… DEN DEN I GUESS
23. 1st debut (filipino girly 18th bday party)party you attended:-- NONE YET
24. 1st bestfriend/s—MARIA CARMELA AND PAULITA CLARITA
25. 1st wedding you attended:-- MY REALATIVE’S DEFINITELY!
26. 1st person who greeted you on your lastbday:-- CLASSMATES..
27. 1st friend in friendster:-- I DUNNO, MAYBE MY EX.
28. 1st cellphone:-- 5110i
29. 1st cellphone ringtone:-- THE CORNY ONES HAHA
30. 1st collection:-- DOLLS
31. 1st tym u saw a ghost?—CREEPY I DON’T REMEMBER EH
32. 1st rollercoaster ride?— IT WAS FIESTA THEN AND I CRIED!!
33. 1st ambition:-- BE A PRINCESS
34.1st thing u will buy w/ ur 1st salary?-- I’LL ANSWER THIS WHEN I WILL HAVE ONE SOMEDAY!! HAHA

WELCOME BOREDOM!!

I GOT THESE FROM A BLOG [WWW.SAABTHESTRANGE.BLOGSPOT.COM/WWW.THEINCUGURL.BLOGSPOT.COM]
AND ITS GODDAMIT BORING DAY TODAY..

~MIGHT AS WELL~

1. CALL ME – JACQ
2. WHAT COLOR OF PANTS ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?- IM WEARING A WHITE NIGHTDRESS
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? – HALE’S BROKEN SONNET
4. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? – PANDESAL
5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? - YIZZ
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?- METALLIC BLUE
7. HOW IS THE Weather Right Now?- STATE OF REBELLION
8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone? – MOM, HOW PATHETIC NOH?
9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent You This? – I STOLE THIS OK?!
10. How Are You Today? – IM FINE THANK YOU GRRR…
11. Favorite Drink? – MILK TEA
12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? - N/A
13. Favorite Sports – BASKETBALL
14. Hair Color? - BLACK
15. Eye Color? – LIGHT BROWN
16. Favorite Band? – SPONGECOLA
17. Favorite Actor & Actress?.- UHM… I DON’T KNOW
18. Favorite Months?- MARCH? MY BDAY MONTH EH!!
19. Favorite Food?- ANYTHING I COULD GET MY HANDS WITH
20. Last Movie You Watched? – ONE MISSED CALL 2
21. Favorite Day of the Year? – UHM.. EVERYDAY I GUESS
23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A Child? - BOOKS
24. Summer or Winter?- I WISH I COULD CHOOSE WINTER!
25. Hugs Or Kisses? – AREN’T THEY SUPPSOSE TO BE TOGETHER?
26. Chocolate Or Vanilla? – CHOCOLATE DEFINITELY!
27. What Is Under Your Bed? – MONSTERS RAWWW!
28. Friend You Have Had The Longest? – LONGEST?? WELL I THINK IT’S CARAMEL
29. What Did You Do Yesterday?- SURF THE NET AND EAT AND SLEEP
30. Favorite Smells?- FOOD? HAHA. ANYTHING GOOD AND NOT TOO POWERFUL
31. Who Inspires You? – GOD, FAMILY, YAEL, EVERYONE CLOSE TO ME, MYSELF!
32. What Are You Afraid Of? – MANY DIFFERENT THINGS EH…
33. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn? – LOTS OF CHEESE!!
34. favorite flower? – BLUE/BALCK ROSES AND TULIPS
35. Number Of Keys On Your Key Ring? – I THINK THEY ARE 7 NO, 8.
36. Favorite Days Of The Week? – EVERYDAY…

Tagalog feature whatnot

Ahaha… what a start, a laugh? Im pathetic haha there goes.

Im about to start again bombarding my blog with my stuff and my opinions of this wonderful world. Haayy.. wala bang pwedeng magawa??

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

Okey, im sipping nai chan. It’s premium Ceylon tea, creamy milk and caramel syrup. In short, milk tea ahaha. Well, the tea taste is very prevalent and the milk taste was nowhere to be found. I also failed to realize there are tea jelly at the bottom of my glass because they are super useless hah. Ok im not bashing here, I enjoyed it and im game for another one when I come back.

Dvd marathon started last week. I’ve been watching thrillers to scene stealers and they are just great. Im also starting to appreciate koreanovelas because they are just way better than what we have here. Oh, but I like “gulong ng palad” and “sa piling mo” although their plots are sooo predictable, I enjoy watching for the heck of it. And princess lulu!! It’s so comedy! Never fails to remind me that love can move mountains or a car for that reason. Wink wink!

Cartoon marathon

Now school is finally over forever [I hope,] I had come to enjoy again the luxury of waking up at the late hours in the morning. However, since im a morning person, I really cannot sleep VERY late unless I went home at 6am coming from a gimmick, oh well.

I woke up at around 9-9:30 am and with no one in the house to converse with, I decided to flop down on the sofa and watch tv. I lazily flipped through the channels until I came back to channel two and settled to watch whatever was there. It was this Disney cartoon “Kim possible” that was aired and well it was ok. Next was mirmo(?) but I didn’t like it so shifted to channel 7 and it was “doraemon”. That adorable blue cat with a pocket full of useful and not so useful objects. Well I miss this cartoon together with mojacko. Hah. Good old times. After watching that and sweet 18 (koreanovela) I took my bath.

On the lighter side, my sister graduated from her preparatory years. Whoohoo.. Congrats sis!! Moreover, same goes to my brother who graduated elementary, welcome to high school world.

To the graduates of 2006, congrats
College  you now lose the privilege of “baon” too bad
High school  welcome to hell years haha.
Elementary  heller years to come….
Preschool  a loooongt time to go still…!

Current song: we hail you alma mater!!
Current mood: thank you very much, we’ll see each other again

Les feminin


Tick…….. tock……. Tick…….

Time sweeping by ever so furious

And now we reach the end of it. Omega

Feelings and memories hustle and bustle as I slowly and seemingly clutch the past. Wheeeewww.

Okey it’s my thank you very much list too.


Mam au-my mother hen for one academic year, tokneneng ulet!

Ryan- hehe,, never thought we’d be close.

Jho-I’ll miss you seatmate forever!!

Aubs- bale mi ulet! Am so glad we became friends

Nikka- my kakwentuhan sa txt. Salamat blogger!!

Katie-oy!! Mommy kana!! Haha joke. Txt klang pag may uhmm…. Aha!!

Leigh-ngeni tapa misasabi ala na napin!!

Kyle- oi!! Wala lang.. am always here for you! friends tamu forever!!

Binky- eikeik!! Another year well spent with you! I’ll miss our letter talk

Robyn-smile my only star!! pakababae kana!! Boy to boy kase relationship mo!

Tesa-I’ll miss our philosophical talks. Right or real?! That’s the question

Ces-hehe!! I’ll miss you.. with a smile.. you can never be too happy but you can try

Jb- oi! Magbayu naka!! Hehe..

Meg- my research and i.p. partner. Surely, destiny brought us together!

Dane- ahaha!! Ala mu!! Para king endless kwentos

Inah- thanks for making mah day brighter and dun sa friendster background


*to all those not here sa list, you were not forgotten. It’s just that the space is not enough for me to all thank you but rest be assured that all memories and bonding we had as iii psalms will never be forgotten-ever.

Jacq here signing off from iii psalms. Till we meet again (Fontana?)

Final checking checked:

__*__investigatory project [science]
__*__term paper [English]
__*__report on matrimony [CLE]
__*__report on noli [Filipino]
__*__project on visual aids [social]
__*__presentation [THE]
__*__oral defense
__*__lecture in noli [aaarrgghh!]


Oh well. I can smell summer. That’s because I just took my bath and had used sunsilk summer fresh watermelon flavor.

Im hardly visibly today in my blog unlike before wherein I bombard this site with faulty writings. Haha. As you have seen above, lots of things to do and they are all due in a day. Haaayy life is so sweet.

Oh twas my berthday last march 14. Im officially sweet hehe!! Well another bittersweet year surpassed. Part of that bitterly sweet memory was my oral defense and I look and actually proved im such a loser big time! Well, it was unfair! We were the only group with a panelist who graduated cum laude in some school. She keeps butting in opinions and questions me as if I had been trialed for multiple murder. Waaahh!! What’s suppose to happen to my grade??

Current mood: an ant’s life

Im going to tell a story.

There was a girl named jacq and one morning she left the house so early she didn’t have time for breakfast. Good thing there was trusty old mcdo to help her fill in an empty stomach but there was one problem, there was no one she could invite to eat with her because in the first place she was with no one. While deciding whether to eat or not, her stomach rumbled and rallied begging for food. So without much ado she went in mcdo and sat alone. Alone wherein lots of people are sitting with someone else or is waiting for someone, something or whatever and she sat there all alone and feeling like a total loser.

After a million light years, she went up to the counter and said she wanted sausage mcmuffin. “one sausage mcmuffin please” the waitress said. Then she asked “what’s your drink mam?” the girl didn’t know what to say. She wanted some softdrinks but it’s way too early as it’s just 9 am. So she decided whether to have either coffee or hot choco. Since this girl is a coffee addict she said yes after another million light years to the waitress who again said “coffee mam?”. Problem two strarts as there was no coffee ready to be serve so the girl has to wait again.

Settling in her seat, she read what’s written in the paper of the food tray. Food facts. Okey and then the waitress appeared with her coffee and creamer and sugar and a paper whch says “coffee, red shirt.” So that’s how they’d recognize the girl who ordered coffee.

Okey then the girl open the creamer and sugar and the coffee itself to pour the side things then mixed it with the cute but thin mixer HAHA. Then she opened and ate her mcmuffin.

Here comes the fatal part, unaware that it is dreadfully and awfully hot, she drank the coffee, then all her senses and nerves in less than a second sped to her brains which shouted “HOT! HOT! HOT! ALERT! TONGUE IN 3RD DEGREE BURN STAGE!!” . and being the loner and loser girl she is, she still drank It regardless of any pain she is feeling right there and there. She just continued on with her burger and coffee without a care in the world but deep down inside she was shouting and crying “HOT! HOT! HOT! ALERT! TONGUE IN 3RD DEGREE BURN STAGE!!”.

Maybe it was her gluttony or maybe it was being a coffee addict but whatever it is the girl shouldn’t just went out without breakafast or maybe she should have just ordered softdrinks or maybe just maybe, she shouldn’t have went to mcdo to eat sausage mcmuffin with coffee.

Current music: pap parap pap pap… love ko’ toh!

The finish line

I was watching when I catch charmed’s commercial slash spoiler. Moreover, I was fascinated with its catch phrase.

The choice where you want to be is different from where you are made to be. But will decisions lead you to where you want to go?

Wala lang, just sharing. Food for thought “pagkain ng kaisipan”

When we talk of finish line, we often think of endings, consummation and conclusion right? But now all of that were changed when our parish priest who lead the mass on an ashy Wednesday said that finish lines would be where we had started. Yep, that’s reading it right wonderful friends of mine, the finish line would lead us back to where we have started.

One good exemplar is the alchemist by Paulo Coelho [im not so sure about the last name]. It tells the story of a boy (Santiago, whose name was only mentioned once in the entirerity [I coined the word] of the book) who searches for the greatest treasure of the world. He searched high and low only to find out that the ground beneath the place where he usually sleeps holds the treasure he had so long seek out. What’s the treasure? SECRET. Read it so you won’t ask me how did the story progress dummy!

There, I think one is a good enough example and that explains why the finish line is also the starting line don’t you think?.

Current music: im all out of love… im so lost without you!

I always found politics and our country’s economic crisis as the two most mind-numbing subjects I could ever write here in my humble blog. But now as manila is seized with great confusion and chaos, I think im ought to now react about what is happening to my country nowadays. Here’s a short article about it.

After watching “dekada 70” and reading a lot of books about martial law, edsa and NPAs, I found myself hoping I could somehow walk back into the past. I often wish that I could warp my 16 year old body and drag it to the pres. marcos period. I would like to experience how is it to be living in that time: Everyone’s afraid for their lives, media being controlled by the government, imposing hell curfews and the military aspect of Philippines In control.

I dunno but that is what I feel. Mom always find that idea ridiculous “you would never want to live in that time… you won’t stand it… you don’t know how it feels like to be there.” But I guess that is where im coming from. I don’t know but would want to. And then out of the blue, my prayers are answered.

After the stampede at ultra, the e-vat and coming r-vat, the st. Bernard tragedy here comes what I’ve been waiting for or something to that content.

Last feb. 24 president Gloria announced that we are in a state of emergency. This was supposed to be a celebration of the 20th anniversary of edsa and Gloria gave us all a very surprising present.

She said it was all the rallies and coup threats that made her arrive in her decision. Just the morning before my ball, the AFP had found papers stating of the plans of people or groups of it to destabilize the government and erap in the wee hours of the morning was forced by police to transfer places. Then different groups of people are gathering [anakbayan, haytt 10, magdalo etc] to protest and express their sentiments [that is for Gloria to step down] by mid afternoon, there was already a huge crowd and even politics biggies had joined the march going to the ninoy monument? Im not sure. However, police were on the opposite streets determined not to let them in and this was in ayala ave. I don’t know what happened next but the next day, some of the leaders of famous anti Gloria parties were being detained and/or chased. Even the daily tribune is now under the watchful eyes of the police for being too sharp-eyed to the administration.

Now what is all about this? Is it martial law period again? I think our situation is nearing that stage already and mom agrees. Well I believe her, after all she knows the tell tale signs cause she experienced it already. I seem excited about what is happening right now but also bothered since many people are affected in someway actually im changing that sentence, everyone is affected in someway.

Im just wondering how could she go out and still loiter pretending everything is all right and under control?. Maybe then it’s tactics, I mean no one in there right mind would admit that something’s wrong right? Coz that would imply that they are weakening and the people are right all along.

Hmmmmmmmm… just a thought

Ersatz, dictionary and grand ball


---------------I just finished reading “a series of unfortunate events” by lemony snicket. Of course I won’t tell details and spoilers but the book is guaranteed to be a good read.

And let me tell you why.

*you won’t have a problem understanding foreign words since the book doubles as a dictionary. For example, café salmonella was not just a restaurant, but a theme restaurant that simply means a restaurant with food and decorations that follow a certain idea. see? So there’s no reason for you not to understand it then.
*the plot and turn of events is as hilarious as it can be.
*it shows you that life will not always be kind especially to good people. You would always be asked to go an extra mile from your expectations. To go a notch higher. I think that’s very well true.

Well on the party side,. our recently concluded ball was a bomb!!...

And let me again tell you why.

*I was with great people.
*I dirty danced with a teacher haha.
*I slow danced with a person I never imagine I can dance with.
*everyone had a great time
*the food was (surprise!) delicious…
*teachers were very lenient.
*great music
*my pumps went that “extra mile”
*lots of steal shots
*a night to remember

I would like to thank Mrs. Leonida Licup, my great mom, for fixing me and making me look so much prettier that night.
To my cousin ,jhing, for the beautiful ball dress she helped me sourced.
Psalms, thanks for the wonderful night. Special mention goes to najee, ryan kim and bobidee who almost entered into a fight that night.

Time to plan the next grad ball.

Whoopee.
The party is near.
It’s now near
I can feel it
I can smell it
I can walk through it
But…
It’s nowhere I can see.
*toink*

Napansin ko lang.

Ang ikli ng mga entries ko sa blog.
Gaya nito.

Do you know how to measure love???
Do you know how to assess evil deeds?
Do you know how to quantify life?
Do you?

“Can you please teach me how.”


I can’t seem to find my way out.

Hahahaha.

One of the most stressing and draining day of my life is about to come. Tomorrow. When my day would begin with a quiz, test all throughout the day thus ending the day still with a quiz. They count 7 all in all and that includes practicum.

Isn’t that a very happy thought?!

Uy, nagbasa ako ng mga blog.


Mga isang oras akong nakatulala sa harap ng ty screen ko at nakanganga sa mga entries na nasa harap ko.

Wala lang. ang aksyon kasi.

May tungkol sa past nila, sa mga ex, sa school at yung pinaka common eh yung “how was my day shit?” haha. How pathetic. Wala na bang makikinig sa mga boring nilang kwnto na “ay, si ganito ganyan” or “alam mo ba na si blah blah blah..” kaya nasa blogger, xanga, livejournal, myspace or friendster sila? Kinakausap pa nga nila minsan yung sarili nila doon. Haha. What’s wrong with the world mama? People acting like they got no BRAINS mama. Fuck. Aydana yung ibang blog pa nga mayroon tungkol sa pagkain nila sa cafeteria for the billion time. Gaad. Wala na ba silang ibang maisulat? Parang napacommon na ang pagkain (syempre) at sa cafeteria gawin to o canteen. Mas astig sana kung kumain ka kasabay ng bio teacher mo habang nagdidiscuss ng cells at may demo pang kasama o kaya kumakain ka sa loob ng teacher’s lounge habang nagbibihis sila. Diba mas exciting isulat yun? Diba? Diba? Oo. Im right haha im soo funny. See? Natawa ako. Naiihi na ako sa sobrang tawa.

Isa pa, hindi ko magets ang mga tao na panay ang lagay ng pictures sa blog. I mean napaka narcissus naman non. Ano ka? Salamin na kahit saan meron o political media? Ngek. Cheeseball! Kung gusto mo ng outlet ng mga pacute mong pictures, bili ka nalang ng potoalbum. O kaya fwendster, dun ka magpaulan ng mga litrato mong pangsqwat sa langaw. Di naman mahal ang potoalbum, naawa naman ako sayo kung di ka makabili. Pero tangina, bat nakakapaginternet ka? Gago! Ulul!! Haha. Dana im talking to myself. Earth to Jacqueline!!!

Napansin niyo baa ko? Kung ganon ako ay successful dahil nagpapapansin ako. Haha. Foony!!!
Rawwww.

Postscript: id explain my current song sana kaya lang pota tamad na ako at inaantok. Next entry nalang, alam nio naman…. Im such a loser for updating this blog so often. “L”

Current mood: ranting
Current song: yung sa kotex commercial, yung si denniz yung may period!

Shoe shopping

----------------why are decent shoes in shortage today huh?!! I was going to buy shoes for the coming ball of ours and when I got tot his bazaar, there was nothing but trash. Forgive me but that is what those stores there epitomize. (it was my first time to go here since I didn’t have much time left to go to galle.)

Come on, don’t you have better sources or supplier???! Grrrrr….
Anyways, I still managed to buy one. This time I went to rob galle na. It’s a silver sling back from Le Donne. Not too high and not too kitty heeled, in other words… PERFECT.

Now if I just know how to fix my hair.

My first love

………well im in a super honest mode today. Please exonerate!

My first love was back then in 1999. I was uhm N yrs. Old (I wont divulge the real age goodness) but all I can say is that I was way too young for love then.

He was your typical guy, tall dark and well not really that handsome but to me he was my idea of Mr. Right. My own version of prince charming. He was my service mate so I had the opportunity to ogle at him everyday before and after classes. I observed how he talk, laugh, play and every verb you can imagine here and I wouldn’t care less. He was perfect and that was all to me. It was true love for me.

But then, fairy tales do end in sad finale, such is my fairy tale. He started going out with a girl (a good friend of mine) and finally blossomed into something else. I wouldn’t elaborate on what I feel then because that is so past but one thing I will always remember is that 4 years after my first love, I haven’t gotten over him.

I may have lead a different life then, had other great loves but I will always love to go back to the time of tall dark and not so handsome but kindhearted guy and feel the sugar rush over and over again.


Current mood: uhm,, sugar full
Current song: you are my first romance! :)

Queries and Riposte
?Napaiyak ka ba ng kalaro mo?
>>>ako ang nagpapaiyak
?What turns you on
>>>character and effortless hotness?Lina-lock nyo ba ang bahay nyo sa gabi? >>>yep.
?nagco-commute kaba?
>>>oo naman.?Ilang beses mo nang nabagsak celphone mo?
>>>I don’t :)?Ano ang mas madalas mo pindutin: Delete orBackspace?
>>>backspace!?Raincoat, umbrella o sugod sa ulan?
>>>when with someone, umbrella but all alone sige sugod!?sometimes you hate cellphones because___?
>>>they need load?
?Paano mo patayin ang ipis?
>>>squash them off until the green comes out ?Anong una mong pinupuntahan sa mall?
>>>none, I just wonder all around… Nahulog ka na ba sa Stairs?
>>> no, not yet. Tripped pede pa?Msg mo sa mahal mo?
>>>putangina mo!! J.o.?gano ka ka-loyal?
>>>hanggang sa magsawa ako.?Naiilang ka ba pag ikaw lang ang kumakain atnakatingin lang ang mga kasama mo?
>>>ah, depends kung gusto ka nilang kainin o gusto nilang kainin kinakain mo ?Bakit may mga taong manhid?>>>you just can’t accept what they have for you
?pano ka magalit?
>>>uhm.. weird! I shout and cuss and throw things (a lot of them) ?nagmumura ka ba sa harapan ng magulang mo?
>>> yes! ?Anong Maganda/Masarap Gawin sa Outing w/Barkada?
>>>talk, picture, chat, bond, whatever seems fun doing thenn?akanganga ka ba pag natutuLog?!? o haLf-cLosed ang mata?
>>>tulo laway eh.?How was your 2005 Summer?
>>>cool ?sinu-sino mga pics sa wallet mo?
>>>myself and some friends?How long was your longest telebabad?
uhm… 6-7 hours I guess… that was a long time ago eh?Sino unang nagbababa ng phone, ikaw o ungkausap mo?
>>>ako usually kasi I fall asleep and leave them talking by themselves.
?Gaano ka kalakas uminom?
>>>depends on what to drink, I can gulp down 5 straight bottles of c2
?Ano ang ginagawa sa kaibigang taksil?
>>>kill them and leave their body rotting on earth.
?Alam mo ba ang adidas pero hindi shoes?
>>>yep, yung food
?Ano ang pangarap mo nung bata ka?
>>>be a very rich doctor someday
?Paano magexplain and teacher mo sa math?
>>>dinig hanggang zamboaga
?Masaya ka ba kapag nasasaktan ang kaaway mo o naawa ka?
>>>I feel victory hahaha!
?Nadapa ka na?
>>>yes, lots of childhood scars to prove

Im listening to hale right now.

I must admit they are pretty good, inspite of the rumors plaguing them.
Broken sonnet is my favorite track. Well from the title itself you’d get the meaning right. That is if you have sense!

…………..anyways I love the song………………

I want to spend every possible time here on earth with that one-person special to me.

“I’ll concede on the line of this song of melancholy”

I always hate to tell what I really feel since it always yields unfavorable results. Gloom and sadness envelops me as the day went on. It feels like floating but in reality, I wasn’t and there’s no possible way how can that happen.

“I don’t care what they say…what they do”

“Cause tonight, I’ll leave my fears right behind”

Life constantly moves for you to be able to do something. It gives you your purpose and meaning in life. Precisely, what is the purpose of life and how sure you are that life is thinking in the same way too?

“I’ll be right at your side…lie down right next to me and I’ll never let go”

Tears are falling from eyes, but they are not mine. I see facades of people rushing and running through an end. However, when they reach it, they find themselves in a bigger tunnel. More loopholes arise and the pain never left.

“Still, I see tears from your eyes, maybe im not just the one for you”

THEOREMS AND WHYS???

Totoo lang, naiinis ako ngayon at ang nakakabaliw ditto eh sa walang dahilan ang pagmumukmok ko. Ewan, ganun nalang walang raging feeling sa aking puso o isip at katawan.

Napakafaraway ng aking utak sa katawan. Even though it tries to catch up, I know…it can never outrun much more keep up with it. Am I depressed? Maybe,,, I guess so

Theorems are fun pala. Geometry kami ngayon with gemma tas may test kami sa chemistry. Pota wala pa akong magets. Tas may project ako sa social at reporting sa Filipino at history nyeta wala akong visual. Tas psychology pa tas term paper. Fak! March 01 ang deadline nito. Tas chapter one palang ang tapos namen! Tas yung science investigatory namen wala pang nangyayari. March early week din ang cut-off date. Oral defense pa shet. Terror clasp now its razor like pincers around my neck, choking me… aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!

Bakit ang teachers march ang gustong date ng submission? Tas hindi pa sila masasayahan kasi gagawin nilang sabay sabay lahat ng mga requirements. Putragis.

Current mood: nahihilo at nagpapalito
Current song: ano ba naman ito diba?

……………..^

Im currently munching on fish crackers.

Nothing’s new though, I’ve been doing since morning which continued till late afternoon until now.

I heard blue moon a while ago. My friend was very oblivious that I cried at that movie. (right in the cinema! I was actually bawling in my seat as I tried to hide streams of tears and colds under the control of my jollibee tissue)

I’m doing my review of related literature in my research and so far, im losing my patience in it. Honestly. This stuff is very problematical, phew! and might I say that our teacher is LEAST HELPFUL in this class.

Current mood: bloated and piffy and guzzler :)
Current song: gunita ko’y ikaw habang nahihimlay

Wheeewwwww………

Im not going to say anything… im posting pictures to tell you exactly what transpired ehehe… just captions of the funny moments… running commentaries!! Whoo!

Am I not cool???


SANA LANG DI GINULO HAIR KO NOH!! GRRR…

GROUP PICTURE WITH THE MAIN MAN

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Feb. 10
10 Minutes of Fame with Me

School: Holy Family Academy
Name: Ma. Jacqueline Licup
Birthday: March 14
Course:
Year: 3rd
Height: 5’5
Motto: struggle is nature’s way of strengthening
Single or in a relationship: Single
Favorite subjects: Anything that has to with humanities or communication
Favorite books: Davinci code, The Alchemist, The Little Prince, Veronica Decides to Die, Tuesdays with Morris and The road less traveled. I love books :)
Favorite musicians: sponge cola! And most of the opm artist today. Also Green day, Fall out boys, cold play and Maria Carey.
Celebrity crushes: yael and yan yuzon. Brad pitt and Chad Michael Murray in actors.

Finish the sentences>

>I am special because I don’t change for the sake of others. I am who I am, take it or leave it.

>The youth shouldn't take drugs because drugs put an end to a good future.

>When I go to McDonald's I usually order chicken burger meal with large fries and caramel sundae.

Questions>

>what do you think are the current problems plaguing the country? The country is full of corrupt officials who did nothing but to hinder progress.

> What do you think you and your fellow youth can do to solve the problems you've mentioned? Espouse our moral values and build our education. It is only possible if we becomes apologist of what is the truth and stand by it.

>If you were given a chance to speak with Pres. Arroyo, what issues would you discuss with her? Poverty. This issue has been passed from presidents to presidents yet nothing has happened to entirely obliterate it.

> What're your extra-curricular activities? I write for our school paper and help in the school plays. I play basketball but stopped due to paucity in time so I just now cheer in the background. And I also dance [social] for our school programs.

> How did you overcome shyness? Im by nature an assertive person. I’ve never been shy :) I guess it’s just in my disposition to be buoyant and jaunty.

Feb 08

Im so stupid…

Alam niyo tama na naman si taena [haha, pasakalye pala sa kanya ko nakuha yung idea sa blog kong ito].

Fuck “what ifs”

Minuret ako nitong mga walang hanggang tanong nito. Tangina. Ilang luha ba ang pumatak dahil dito? Ilang gabi ang di ko tinulugan kakaisip ng mga sagot… at hindi rin naman ako nabigyan talaga ng sagot.

Masakit ang magisip ng ganito. Balet kanyo? Kasi nga naman pinapatay mo lang sarili mo sa mga bagay na tapos na. nagpapakalunod tayo sa isang basong tubig na juice ang laman? Masakit diba? Oo.. napakasakit talaga. At nakakadagdag lang lalo sa paghihirap na dinadaanan. Tapos tayo ang nagsasabi na “ayaw ko na” o “bakit ganito” or “tama na” ang gago noh? Ganun nga siguro ang tao. Adik sa sakit hehe.

"the most painful thing in being is remembering the future, particularly the one you'll never have." –joan of arcadia

kaya ako, haha tama na ang state of pity ko sa sarili. Putchang buhay naman. Ang sagwa, ako ang nagbibigay ng sakit sa sarili ko. Nasaktan na ako ng ibang tao tapos sasaktan ko ulet sarili ko? Hindi ako tanga. Haha. Wish ko lang. Ouch. Eto na ba ang katapusan? Sana…

Feb. 05

Mahal mo ba ako?

Oo, ikaw

Ikaw nga ang tinatanong ko. Bakit? May problema ka ba don?

Hindi mo ba ako pwedeng mahalin? Hindi ba? Bakit? Sa anong dahilan at pipiliin mong siya kaysa mahalin ako?

Dahil ba sa itsura? Sa ugali? Sa estado sa buhay? Ano ang basehan mo ng pagpili? Bakit ganon ka pumili?

Mahirap ba akong mahalin? Masasaktan ka ba kung pagbibigyan? Minsan lang ako darating sa buhay mo, bat mo palalagpasin ang isang pagakakataon? Baka pagkaalis ko, magsisi ka at pinakawalan mo ako.

Isang pagkakataon lang naman. Malay mo baka…. baka lang naman magtagal at kailanman hindi na tayo magkahiwalay.

Feb. 01

The child lifts up her tear-streaked face.


“Do what you have do”


with a sharp thud she fell to the ground

Then she felt no more pain.

Jan. 31

People constantly change.

That’s the truth.

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I know, it’s just that it’s hard to let go.

Don’t it??

An open letter to a dear friend


It is when you hurt the most that you love the most.


Everything is a blur. I am not in my right order of thinking but I’d continue with this anyways since there is no other way. If this is where it has to happen. Then let it.

What a crazy thing.

When time comes and you have to set someone free, [That person maybe a friend, parents or boyfriends]you try to stop it you can’t.

All your efforts are futile. And we the persons left behind has no choice but to accept things as they come.

Maybe, it wasn’t entirely your fault. I have my own share in the guilt too. But this won’t all start have you told me the truth from the START. I could have understand you. I could have listened to your explanations. I could have explain my side. but no. you didn’t explain and that damaged our friendship. You didn’t want to explain to me. You didn’t want to lose that friend without even thinking you can lose ours in the process.

Then you started to shut yourself up. You close your doors to us for someone else. I tried to reach out, hold on to you but you let me go. You started running before I can reach you and then you were gone. It was then that maybe it’s time to move on and grow as separate persons.
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But on second thought, maybe im not. There are times im wondering why is this all happening. I feel like crying and asking you what this had to be the situation?

WHY?

That is the question.

the end
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Tell me im pathetic and probably I am. Im tired of this myself. Can anyone help me? Just teach me how to make the hurting stop. Please….

For smart people just like you…
Got the brains to answer this?
Think of words ending in -gry. Angry and hungry are two of them. There are only three words in the English language. What is the third word? The word is something that everyone uses every day. If you have listened carefully, I have already told you what it is.

Now, comment back if you have the guts.
Current mood: who wants to be a millionaire?
Current music: I’ve got the power yeah baby!

Para sa mga walang magawa sa buhay nila-

I am currently in a state of ennui.

There’s nothing to honestly talk about.

Nothing to speak of.

To do

To see

To explore

To go to….

Oh well, I just post senseless things then like….

If trees were made higher than us humans in terms of intelligence… would they be called humans and WE trees?

Can you imagine if we were the ones in the jungle, scavenging for food and the animals are the one civilized e.g. driving, cooking working etc…

Or humans are the main attractions in fairs and circus instead of dolphins, parrots or other creatures? And they are the ones selling cotton candy and popcorn.

Can you imagine a giraffe presiding a holy mass?

Or police zebras hunting down robber dog, pusher cat and drug lord lizard?

I think the world will be in a better state condition.

Haha…

Im serious.

Just this weekend nakausap ko up close and personal for the ferst time in our whole lives together ang isang tao that di ko talagang akalain na makausap. I mean, yes would you believe na for 7 years nakakasama ko siya and yet ngayon lang kami maguusap ng ganito:

Ako: bear, do you know the difference between TOTOO and TAMA?

Tesa: I think there’s a difference…

Ako: do you know what is it?

Teas: totoo is real and tama is right

Ako: how pathetic bear, I didn’t told you to give their meanings, I should have just read the dictionary had it been that way.

After a long pause…

Tesa: you believe in reality and that could b wrong or right and if u believe in that reality, that truth for you…

Me: ah, yes bear… you’ve hit it.

Tesa: you? what would you have chose? The truth or right?

Actually, up to this moment I don’t have an answer but here is what I said

Me: the truth.

Tesa: but what if it will onli give you pain no matter how real it is already? Sumtyms we have to accept dat there is the fake reality… in order to move on

Me: what do you mean?

Tesa: kc u know that in d end nothing happened, dat u just hope for nothing.

Me: ah yeah, but people aren’t here to have fun. People lived to be hurt and that’s about it. You only have to accept fakes. There’s no other way out.

Tesa: yeah so why does it fil so right when its so wrong? Or how can it be wrong wen it fils so right?

Me: oh, you said “feel” feelings and emotions are subjective. Either wrong or right.

Tesa: so the one you choose to love is the wrong one?

Me: no, it’s the feeling that’s wrong.

Tesa: why?

Me: for example…. Ur in love with this married guy, sure it’s not wrong to love but reality sets in that you could never be with that guy, not even close. So you move on, that’s right. The truth can only comes after the right.
Tesa: oh I see,

Me: it hurts,. There are a lot of rules, complications and everything else.

Tesa: yeah, I agree…

Me: so you? what are you choosing?

Tesa: why suddenly you’re asking me the question? Oh well, the truth too maybe,,, im going to let it go..

Me: ah ok…

Tesa: new situation, if you realize you love someone late, what are you going to do?

Me: suffer the consequences then… it’s your fault anyway, like me…

Tesa: oh? Why?

Me: I was left with no choice then but to do so.

Tesa: nagsisi ka?

Me: ofcourse, who wouldn’t?

Tesa: that hurts….

Me: so much… given another chance I would have done differently

Yeah, up to this second, chinito boi. If ever you’re reading this and im sure you are. Im regretting that moment I let you go. My compuction would go on and on thus never ending. Your dimpled face standing at the doorway and smiling at me would forever haunt me as I lay down to sleep. You do understand that I did that not for myself but for you and only you. Now it is only in my dreams that I can hold and continue loving you just like before. The difference? There was never a past to start with.

Tears are falling… beep beep beep.

oh my god, it was a wrong site!!

it's supposed to be this way....

www.taenawalangtitletongsitenato.tk
taenamogago.livejournal.com

there,,, im sorry for the stupid mistake

I have read a very interesting live journal today. [www.taenagagomo.Livejournal.com]

I know that I belong here to blogspot but I can’t help but take a glance to that attention-grabbing blog or journal or whatever.

I honestly doesn’t know what is his name [im sure of his gender though] or who he is or what he does or what not. But one thing is for sure, he writes pretty hard.

I know a lot of people use web log as a way to let out the shits and angst of their life. or rather for some, an online diary, which sucks by the way. But this certain “taena” used it for practice.

Yep people, practice for his part-time job… he wants to be a writer.

When I read the first entry [that means the latest, about the comments] I was like “what d hell was he trying to point out?” why does he have to care about those things blah blah blah oh well, some troubled misunderstood guy perhaps. Still, there was a certain feeling that reigns through the entries and the succeeding ones [the past entries idiot!] there was depth and substance though I can’t figure out just yet what was that.

And so, I continued reading his journal. Now I do get it, I think. He makes people feel his emotions. His emotions are raw and they really make you feel for him. Of what? I don’t know. That is what im still to find out.

I think im wasting my life and computer life reading his entries, but I don’t know!
It’s like im glued to it. That I just have to continue on and on. Oh well. I just have to.

Current mood: im dizzy
Current music: …and ignite your bones, I will try to fix you

Chocolates are addictive.

I have always been a fan of chocolates. Name it and surely, I have eaten it from Hershey to the plain choc nut.

Now I learned chocolates are stimulants. That’s probably the reason why the are said to trigger happiness on the eater. If so, then im an addict and I’d be too dependent on it that I’ll just have to continue taking it and eating it and pigging out. That is until im gonna be out of my mind then I’d be repulsive to everyone. I’d be confined to some asylum and be with lunatics and I’d spend the rest of my life in chocolate misery.

Not a happy dog right now. Aaawww,,

Current mood: addictive
Current music: I try to resist it, im addictive to you!

Illusions of grandeur

I wish I am a fairy.

Then I can grant everyone’s wish including mine. Then the world would be so much happier to live in. right?

Im gonna be a fairy complete with wand, an orb and those thin dancing with the wind silvery candy colored dresses. Then Im gonna grow wings just like tinkerbell and fly to never never land.

Oh, just how I wish I really can…

Current mood: fairily
Current music: when you wish upon a star to…. Get it you idiot!

Eto… labo!!


*I am pretty [well, screw you if you don’t believe. Nagiisa ka lang!! HAHA. Although they say pia, my sis, is prettier I think I am prettier!!
*I love books but this is no secret if you’re my classmate or family member.
*ako ay isang tanga pagdating sa pag-ibig. Yup. Sawi. Bigo. Nananalasa.
]may galit ako sa mga taong mayabang pero puro hangin… hindi lang ang tummy pati ulo and UTAK!!
]I believe na tayo ay ginawa ng diyos upang magpasaya. At hindi para magpaiyak so kung pwede lang noh!! Papatay ako ng tao pag pinaiyak niyo ako!!
]exception dun, umiiyak ako sa mga corny at baduy na love story.
~I have a very sunny disposition which can alter in a few hours. Fine seconds.
~natatawa ako sa mga tao na akala niya hindi nila ginagawa ang mga bagay na ayaw nila sa ibang tao.
~ang love ay parang tae. Kapag hindi na kailangan ng katawan ay ilalabas na. Taena naman!! Shet. Labo.
^puta! Gusto kong malaman bakit tao ang tawag sa tao? Kung bang puno ang pinakamataas na creation ni god sila ang tao at tayo ang puno???
^bakit may mga tao na sadyang manhid?? Haha. Isa ako sa mga yun eh!
^gusto ko ang drums. Problem arises when I play them.

Im tired…

Don’t let me even start with the whooping loads of schoolwork we have been given!! Packing shet talaga!! Uhm… di pa naman kami graduating ah!! Kainis tuloy…

Okey, but the good thing is, im getting almost enough sleep [rejoice! After months…] which is a miracle I tell you!!! It all began when I fell asleep at 9pm and then waking up a t 1am which cause me a great headache. So I promise myself im just gonna finish everything early if I can and sleep before time! Okey, I hope to do finish on time. Haayyy…. I sometimes have to go home late at night or early morning for that matter haha.

And magaaral na akong mabute!! Haha… Seriously, my grades are ok but nowhere satisfied. Share ko lang, I have a sinking feeling im getting LOWWW grades this quarter. Huhu.. Then I hope not. “Think positive nga diba?”

Current mood: scared of not being with you
Current song: im so sick with you, honey

People always think of me as this bratty and snotty schoolgirl. Boo stupid people!!

And that sucks! Ow, it never has to be that cruel!!


Well, it proves that it’s easier to be bad than prove them you’re good.
Ok, so now im gonna be grotesque, creepy, freaking mean!! Haha….

I didn’t like what I wrote since it sounds like im a monster or alien from mars heelllo E.T. so I think I have to laid it clear and slick, im now having a 90 degree and be mean… again HAHA.

Honestly, im not making any sense here so there. Who the hell makes one anyway?

Im not in the mood for songs and humor today bitch!!!

I was walking with my jacket pulled close to me in the cold muddy street when suddenly a roaring car swerved past me leaving me in a façade of walking cake only in the modified form of dirty brown.

Mind you people, he didn’t even have the nerve of get out that f&*!@$G car of his or her to apologize. He or she just discreetly passed after the nerve-wracking mud-drenching incident, which he has done.

The coolness of people now nowadays. Strains my nerves further.

Current mood: feels like a million poops. Eeww.
Current song: rain on me like it never rain before [huh?]

happy bday to my favorite drummer of all time.

“just how long can all time mean…hmmm?”

^basta whatever that may mean. Chris rocks!! Okeyiz?? He’s now 21 wow…. Legal adult na!! haha….

Always keep fit though I know I never have to say that. Heehee. Thanks for the ML dude :)

By the way, hi sa twin mo who happens to be a special friend of mine… heeheh…
Hi sponge!! Hi yael! Hi armo! Hi gosh!! Heellow chris! Eheehee,,
Hi pupil!! Hi ely! Hi yan! Hi bogz! Hi dok!!

Hellow to everyone else in between then…

Love,
An angel without at halo but has a harp

Current Mood: sitting pretty
Current song: happy birthday to you to the tune of stupid love!

ONCE IN A BLUE MOON

--- ok… finally I have watched this movie, I should have watched this sa cd kaya lang na raid and mga nagtitinda kaya wala silang mga kopya and it also leaves me wondering bakit MMFF copies lang ang kinuha leaving the others out… hmmm….

“blue moon… you saw me standing all alone… without a love of my own”

Ok… eto ang summary niya na tinry ko talagang iklian pwomise!!!

The story begins with the old man [manuel] being told na may cancer siya and that he is soon to die tapos sabi din na he already do all his unfinished business and enjoy his last months. He said na isa lang ang gusto niyang isayaw, si Corazon. Ok now flashback, 2 ang Corazon, yung isang taga maynila at yung isa obvious na gusto siya. Now gusto ni manuel si azon, that’s the girl’s nick pero gusto din nung isa pa nilang guy friend si domingo. Ayun. Tas si azon, nagging mutya ng place nila then gusto sanang isayaw ni manuel pero takot siya.. tht night pumunta si azon to say goodbye and even invited him to go with them pero since takot si manuel he obviously can’t so azon gave her half the necklace she was wearing and if mabuo yun meaning magkita ulit sila, sila talaga. Sabi din ni manuel na one day maisasayaw din siya.Ok time flies by at nag graduate na sila. Pumasok sa army sina manuel and domingo. Ayun… war time eto tas yun ditto na namatay si polo nung na capture sila ng Japanese. Then si manuel napunta sa hospital kung saan nagtatrabaho si Corazon na nurse… siya yung may gusto kay manuel, ayun may nanagyari sa kanila tas napreggy siya then nagpakasal sabi ni manuel wala na daw si azon, then ayaw niya isayaw si corazon may symbolical meaning pala yung bubong na sira tapos inayos daw ni mark kasi one night sabi ni Corazon na sabi daw ni manuel aayusin niya lahat pero di nangyari yun kasi mahal pa rin niya si azon. Edi yun nanganak na nga si Corazon tas iniwan niya para magkaroon ng space iniwan niya nag kalahati ng picture nila and if that will be mabubuo, they are really for each other. With that she left. Nakita ni manuel yung sulat but not the letter na napulot ng kanyang anak na itinago niya.
Back to the present, pinuntahan ni old manuel ang dating bahay ni Corazon pero la na siya tas sinindo siya ng kanyang anak [rod] and apo [kyle] nag alit yata sa mga kotse. Ayun nagpunta sila ng baguio and legaspi habang kinukwento niya ang kanilang love story ni Corazon [yung 2 ha,] tas akala ni rod na si azon ang hinahanap. Then nung nasa albay na sabi ni old manuel balik na sila and leave it all to fate.
Sa kanilang part eng world, nagsusulat si Corazon[yung mom ni rod] ng letters to find manuel. Ayun. Nga tas nakita ng isang program na nagrereunite ng mga nagkahiwalay then yun. Si kyle ang unang nakakita kay Corazon and she gives the picture tas yun nag reunite sila and si rod nakatanggap ng sulat [from his mother na nalate lang ng konte] na hinahanap nga siya tas yun sa hospital yun, si Corazon pala ang true love niya and hinahanap. Wow, sumayaw sila na hindi niya nagawa nun umiiyak na ako at his point.
Manuel also diedbut at least got his mission done. The other Corazon pala [first love] was the one who died early in the film.

Comments:

-I already know agad na c Corazon na nanay ni rod ang hinahanap/ true love why?
*yung bahay na pinuntahan ay yung dati nilang bahay
*old manuel was singing her favorite song, bluemoon
*he said to rod “maiintindihan mo rin”
but I was confused kasi sa legaspi, sabi sa Corazon ay adventurous pointing out to azon. Ayun!
-I love the way they used things to symbolize their lifes. Mala serendipity wit a twist!!
-kahit na ano palang mangyari si manuel and Corazon parin kasi diba kahit walang tv the letter would arrived. Talagang sila. Pure destiny. Meant for each other.
- I like what Corazon nung nurse pa siya said “true love ang hindi namamatay” and I agree!
-I also like what kyle said that bluemoon is all about 2nd chances. Proves just that.
-hindi ito ang normal kilig story kasi basta iba siya.
-naiyak ako sa last part yung finally naisayaw na si Corazon kasi sabi niya nung di diya naisayaw “lahat ay tamang tama, sayang, sana maulit. And it did after nga lang ng mag 50 years. Naiiyak talaga ako imagine!!
-true loves comes only once in a blue moon.
-naiiyak ako kasi alam ko hindi ito pwedeng manyari sa real life
-all in all, I love this film
-one question, kelan kaya narealize ni manuel na true love niya si Corazon??


Current mood: amazed at fate/destiny

Our field trip

Whew… our EOP was over… finally! But it was all good and fun. Want to know what happen? Ok! Kwento na to! [educational outbound program]

The bus trip: syempre saan pa ba mas magandang simula kundi sa simula. Nways, dumating ako ng 4:45 am. Nakita ko agad ang bus namen at sumakay ako. Isa pa lang ang classmate ko na andun pero umaapaw na ang mga kashare namen sa bus. Kwento kwento. Tapos dumating din si LBM girl. Ahaha!! Joke lang. ayun. Ay mayroon din palang blopper nun, yung bulaga!! Tuloy tuloy lang ang mga pangyayari hanggang sa mapuno ang bus. Tapos naghahanap ako ng araw pero ala eh. Di pa sumisikat! At sa wakas, after 7 years, umalis na kami. Ang masaklap ay hindi pa kami umaabot sa expressway ay inaatake na ang biyahilo ang katabi ko. Sabi ko hawag kang susuka dahil ihuhulog kita sa bus! At hindi nga natuloy. Samantala ako ay natulog muna dahil naaamoy ko na na nakakapagod ang mga next events.

Nung nasa nlex na kami, nagpapasa ng chizwiz and classmate ko tapos liver spread! Ay breakfast in bus! Solid astig. Ayun kumain kami tapos nagstopover ang supot ng pandesal samin at hindi na nakaalis kasi inubos na namen lahat!! Haha… ayun. Di ako nakuntento binuksan ko ang mini-ruffles ko. Ayun maya maya manila na kame, nag eenjoy kami sa mga billboards ng kung ano anong products. Ok nabuhay na ako dito at minsan nadaanan namen ang ibang bus. Feeling artista kaway ng kaway!! Haah… dumaan kami sa gma7 at nakakita kami ng ob van ng abs-cbn. Ayus. Tapos ngayon ko lang nalaman na magkatabi ang rustan’s, starmall at robinson’s pioneer. Pagkatapos ng marami pang malls, buildings at highways. Nasa slex na kami! Ayan nag stopover na finally, punta kaming treats at wala lang, nagpalibre ako ng lollipop at bumalik na ang bus. Ok! Tuloy na ang bus trip. Ayan,,, napunta na kami ng laguna. Ok lang cia civilized and yun. Basta ordinary place lang cia. Uh, at that moment friends, 5 hours na kaming nakaupo sa bus at there’s no sign na bababa kami soon. So mukhang pancakes na ang butt ko. Tapos nag lecture na ang aming guide at sorry to say ha, hindi siya magiging magaling na tour guide kasi utal siya!! Haha. At last after an hour dumating na kami pero nauna yung isang bus so sa kabila kami. Yung driver, hindi ko alam kung adik or wat pero sa bawat curve at maraming curve ha!! Lalo yatang bumibilis kaya ang effect, helo helo ako!! Ok! Baba na finally…. Tinry ko na mag cr kaso nakita ko yung cr nasa cliff at iniisip ko kung ilang tao na ang nag cr at nahulog dun.

The 1st lake: lake calibato actually, ineexpect ko na mala forest effect ang view pero nung kababa ko, shet! Ang baho!! TAPOS yung view ay isang area used for quarrying. May maganda actually pero basta di ko ma explain. Ok, lakad lakad tapos pababa yung steps and maliit ang steps!! Ayan adventure na may tubig tubig na and ofcourse! The risk na magslide ka. Ang babato ng lugar tapos di mo alam jinojoke ka pla nung bato at bibigay siya! Ok. Muntikan na ako pero naabot ko rin yung lake without any disaster happening to me. It was ok. Lake cia tapos may mga bahay and nagraraft!! Yun lang, ok!! The trip back was harder dahil hinihingal na ako!!

We took refuge in the bus and ate my super cold lunch. I wasn’t satisfied in any way. How pathetic. Labo!

2nd and 3rd lake: it was so far!! We literally have to go trekking and endless walking!! My my my!! And then we arrived at the lake pandin but we still have to go up so I’ll leave the story there later. Gagad kami so nagalis kami agad ng sapatos eh mamaya pa pla!! We proceeded to the upper lake, yes there still is!! Naku, it was the hardest part kasi may tale na!! we are going uphill!! And they way was really pataas like those of a mountain. The rope pa naman was so flexible, matabig lang ng isa it will follow,,, and they way was sosteep and high!! Nax puxa! Nevertheless I managed. Tapos ayun there are some parts na super dulas and I just didn’t think im gonna make it!! Shet talaga,,, bangin babagsakan koh!! Then yun finally naabot namen ang taas na talagang napakataas….we could see the overview of the lake yambo the 3rd lake, by the way… kambal pala yung 2 lake…. Lovers daw cila…. Okey after some story telling by our lola basyang,,, baba na… ayan na naman…. Kelangan kong kumapit kay gelo kasi super mahuhulog talaga ako!! Ayun success although muntik muntikanan na ahhaah…. Ligo na toh!! Balik kami sa 2nd lake…. Ayan…. Ang saya kase nagtampisaw kami… ahaha… ang basa talaga… and yung lake nay un pla ay mababaw lang sa side then biglang lalalim haha… muntik na naman akong madisgrasya kasi I forgot that!! Pumunta ako sa malalim… tapos mabato yung lupa nagslide ako and everytime I try to get up but nasusugat ako sa paa… so bute nakatayo parin ako.. ayun… ligo, basahan picture pala!! Haha… wid sr dheck as the official photographer and nurse and bear!! Haha… tapos rafting wow! Super it was mah first time and yun after wearin jackets, game na!! ang saya saya talaga! Iba yung feeling eh!! Yung raft nababasa ng tubig pero hindi kayo totally basa tapos ang sabi yung lalim nglake ay equal sa 6 tall coconuts… then bumaba na kami… ang lamig ng tubig!! Wow talaga.. tas yun…. Balik na sa bus to change….

Blooper: as I was walking with my trusty old tsinelas, suddenly sa sobrang ano nung mud, naiwan yung slippers tapos naka apak na ako eh wala na pala sa paa ko.,…haay.,..

Yun, nagpalit kami sa bus and ayun! Kinarir ha!! Dun nagpalit pati panty haha!! And yung driver pala di bumaba!! Haha… bastos!! Labo.
Ayun after din ng bois proceed na sa last lake….. sa civilized place napala toh!! Kain kain muna,,, pangrestore ng energenes…

Sampalok lake: thr biggest one, eto asensado…. May viewing deck siya and sa tabi ng parang town square… ayun we are not satisfied kaya bumaba pa kami and dun kami mismo sa tabi ng tubig,, ah may viewing deck then but if u wid just see it, at sa dami ng tao na nandun.. any minute parang babagsak but it was a great view ha… ganda talaga and ang lamig.. picture picture ulet then it started to rain… oh by the way, it was here wer u can borrow bike and go biking… but we didn’t, it was raining nga,,, we climbed steps ng parang ka2lad ng sa grotto sa baguio. Then bus na…. hhaaayyy,,,

Trip back home: Stopover sa collets para pasalubong, ayun.. ganun lang pala ang collets… akala ko may restaurant na o kung anuman…. Turns out wala lang.,,,, it just like a sari sari store…. Ngek!!
Ayan, low batt na talaga ko so I decided to sleep…. Zzzzhhh…. I woke up and it was the last stopover for the trip.,, wid lara and ryan ayun… cr and buy sa mcdo…. Cinnamon sticks rox!! Yumyum and so is mcdo… tas yun…. Nadaanan naming ang brent international school haha.. and on our way to manila na… I saw dasma, Corinthian gardens… akala ko galante yung labas, yun pala… ala lang,… maganda pa entrance ng village namen eh!! Tas yun, enjoy sa mga billboards and everything…..araneta din plaa!! Haha…. Yuin…. Kuya rjay and dexter had to say goodbye kasi sa manila na talaga sila.,… kaya yun…. Wala lang.,.. kwntuhan to d max and pahinga….
Tas angeles na… we are watching gulong ng palad yung nadapa c tin sa putik…. Ayun… tas hinatid na ako,,,, bye bye na!!

This is just a passing entry as I am in a hurry to do things. La lang… rushed!!

--- anyways… im amazed right now. A friend of mine told me she could play drums and that she actually plays in a band! To which I am green with envious kasi I can’t for the life of it play drums or any musical instruments! That pains me to torments!!

Music never even considered giving me a sprinkle of it’s beauty. Know why? Yes, I can memorize all those notes and melody but never let me put them in practice!! Kainis nga, bakit ganun? I love to learn and play guitar or piano or drums which totally rocks for me eh!! So maybe that’s why im so addicted to band now… because of their great capacity not only to sing BUT play instruments much more, write songs.. galing nila noh??

Current mood: amazed and cursed~!

The world of insane people

Im reading a book right now and im inspired by it. It’s about a girl who wants to die but then her plans are interrupted and is now given a few more days to live which leaves her wondering if she had really done the right thing.

I believe that people often get tired of routine. So they try to have alternatives and seek to do things the other way around. Don’t you think this people are insane? Trying to do things, which in a way can be considered WRONG.

Understanding life is really a big problem don’t you think so? We all only have our present which is very brief and then before you know it, present is already past and you? You are standing there all alone, still wrapped up in that moment when you are still trying to fathom things, it suddenly leaves you behind.

Take for instance, a tie… why has it been called a tie? Can’t we call it just a piece of colorful cloth wrapped around the neck to make you breath abnormally? Why does tie have to be formed?

Being insane, I suppose is a way easier living than this life. When you are one, you’re free to everything you wished. No one stops you for they understood the fact you are sick. But are you really one? If you run the risk of being different. Yes you are and I congratulate you for that. Insane people are better because they dare to be different, see how far they can go and that’s what sets them apart.

Current mood: insane

Life as it is

Gemini is playing on my computer. Amidst much (and when I say too much it literally means thousands of times) airplay, I never gotten myself over this song! I dunno… the song looks like it has been made for me. Aww.. haha… the beat, lyrics, melody, meaning everything really makes my heart melt. Besides the fact that Yael sings it. Yeah, I just love it period!

Basta yung way ng pagkaka drums eh super astig, ramdam mo talaga yung kanta and yung boses super di ko ma explain pero alam niyo yun yung, wow!! And the lyrics are so emotional, haha… im being redundant here but yun talaga!! Masyadong madrama yung kanta and I think that what struck me to like it!

Okeiz, enough about them. Test is over and the result is not too good for me. Especially Christian living education and Filipino. I have a high risk of having a score below 70 out of the coveted 100 points test. And it is just because of sheer stupidity! I mean how stupid could I just get? I could now see it! My grades slipping down and swirling in the ground! Oh and chemistry! Balancing was so punyeta!!! I didn’t finish!! Shet!!! And that’s two poits each so that means -16 na agad ako in addition to my would be mistakes!! Haaayy,,, not too good. Anyways, I hope it won’t go down that loooowww….. ohhh.. im scared…. Im not satisfied with this test!!!

We part only to meet again

The mighty boundless waves may come; remembrance of it shall bring you near
And I will with you, go forever.
And at midnight’s silent hour
When brilliant planets shall guide the ocean
The name shall rise to heaven’s highest star
And mingle with my soul’s devotion.

I noticed the poem during one of my silent sessions and it really struck me.
It was of course by Edgar Allan Poe, which sadly was not completed.

I dunno why but every time I read these verses as if my heart is being tormented. Freaky huh? Yes it sure does.

Anyways,, im currently reviewing for our prelims… still…still… so I won’t be able to post until maybe Wednesday and this coming Friday is our educational outbound trip to Laguna. Seven lakes to be exact.

Ei, it’s only a few months before this schoolyear finally ends and summer is near. Im being a paranoid here! Christmas vacation was just over duh!! The lessons are crazy just like me. Im lost. Heavily. So now what do I do? No really, what??

Uh…?

Uhm… I think im gonna have a career in comedic acts. Oh my… first of all check out the new template of my blog!! The beauty of ownership!! Ehee,,, but there’s no pix yet. I am yet to learn how to! It’s also in my feel good color, stylistic black! Uhum!! Now I seriously believe I can be a comedian. I barely recall the no. of times I made my classmates and friends laugh.

Anyways, what made me smile or smirk is this certain group of friends… let’s not name them!! It all started with their goal to have one t-shirt, all of the same design. Sort of like a uniform… then after that, for Christmas someone gave the 17? Or less a belt that had all the same design. As if it wasn’t enough, they all wore the same huge pearl bracelets given again as a gift. I just wondered what would they looked like have they decided to wear the same t-shirt, belt and bracelet? Hmmm.. Food for though yan. Ay! They also have the same flurry and hairy kind of ball pen. And yep, they all use it! Cute noh?!

me and my friend 

People! Just dropped by to say hello to everyone who happened to pass by my blog!!!

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Those who want to relive the undying love and tragedy of Romeo and Juliet may come and watch the play at AFT Theater on January 14 that’s a Saturday…. and continues until February 19… im not sure! It starts yan yuzon and irina feleo and is directed by Steven uy. Their will be a gala night on Jan. 12 wherein pupil and sponge cola who sang the play’s theme song “Gemini” will have a mini concert after the play.

Please support it.

For those who are part of the sponge cola mailing list. You are all entitled to a discounted ticket just type blah blah blah….. to blah blah blah….. that’s it

I feel reticent doing this, honestly. Oh well… I hope you watch! It’s very promising.

Post script! Post script!

I know this is kinda late but let me at least retaliate everything and everyone that made me stay alive this year.

The start of 2005 was not good, in fact it was even the worst year ever in my life. The 1st quarter and half of the second was full of anger, sorrow, pain and anguish.
Many changes had to be done. Some hurting me and some hurting other people but then these changes have just to be made. Like its stimulus or whatever you call it.

But then it wasn’t all pain and tears cause slowly now im regaining everything that has been taken away from me. They might not be the same things but I can safely say they are equal in value or even more. I can now swim the ocean without choking and fear of drowning. I can now leave the island halfway to be able to go somewhere else. I was able to overcome so many things and im grateful for that.

I know the world has to move on and I have to go with it but before that, I want to take this opportunity to mention some people and things that I believe had somehow helped me reached this point of serenity and tranquility in my life now. Without them, I guess my metamorphosis wouldn’t have been completed and I molded.

Uhm… I guess the best person to start with would be my mom. She has always accepted and forgiven me inspite of everything (and when I mean everything, god know what these things are). She never fails to teach me life’s lesson and I would always be grateful for that. No matter how strict she is, behind that façade is a true mom who would always love her child-no matter what life brings. Dad comes next cause though he is desserts away, he never fails to check-up on me.

Friends (kim, mela, najee, dane, ryan, the whole psalms). They had always made my day a whole lot better with their crazy antiques and weird quirks. They are always the person you can count on whenever, whichever. That’s for sure. I believe that life always gets better when you have someone near you. I’ve never been wrong.

My family that includes lola and the loving uncles and aunties and psychedelic cousins and my pamangkins. I love you simply for giving me money when I need them most. For bringing me my favorite shoes and clothes. Haha!! Joke!! Ofcourse, for the most of my life, you’ve never been around but I hope that someday we’d be together and never part again. Hmmm.. maybe in 5-6 years time… to my pamagkins,, haayy… when I grow a little older and I’ve gotten a better job I would be able to buy and give decent gifts for you all. :)

To other people who have made 2005 a good/bad year for me, thank you still for without you my year would not have been completed. For all the lessons and experience you taught me, at least I should say thanks.

I just hope that this firedog year brings me better luck than last year. *wink*

Today, my cousins are now leaving.

Two weeks seems to have jumped off a cliff.
It was just then when they arrived from the states and we are having fun in boracay and now we just said our goodbye to each other. Hush-hush. It hurts me especially that I get to see them for only 2 weeks and we have to wait like a year again (that Is if they’re coming) or after 5 years and im not so sure if im still here either. Who knows we might all be there together heehee!

Im surely gonna miss Christian and his hyper antics…. My super gwapo cousin junior who hugged me twice and said I love you too to me. Incest here! And of course Kathleen..

I feel like crying but I don’t want to cry. There is already too much drama here and the world doesn’t need any more. I think im gonna make it but every time I remember, tears start to fall. That’s it! Im letting them fall. It happens only once in a blue moon. Im already missing them. My room now is suffering an extra huge case of flashflood.

I wish im in states already.

The best New Year

I just had the best New Year ever for a long time. I guess it’s because many of my long lost finally found relatives came back home. I was able to see my huge cousins and super kulit cousin parin plus my uncles and aunties I last saw 9 years ago.

We had lots of fireworks! Even before midnight tick tock we already finish then up. But they are safe. Free flowing watusi and poppers that looked like garlic were given to children even adults!! We even throw them at atchi lorelie who avenged by throwing some at us as well. Even uncle dado was dancing when we scratched the watusis. There was this butterfly firecracker that flies and this piccolo but it was not good the products I mean. there was also the judas belt which made my eardrums almost split. Ofcourse we also have lusis and fountains. It was soo much fun. We bought again at around 11am and all in all spend around p3500 for fireworks alone. We finish up at around 1 am and started ytaking pictures for the hundredth time around

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Oh my… due to inevitable constraints, this will be my latest blog…
Date: dec. 26 2005
And I have lots of kwentos….. let’s begin

When the school was still alive.. then I hope it will never resurrect again, I told everyone how busy we all are well… the contests all went well…

The choral fest though we weren’t chosen was really good. We had practices for only 2 days but that was one hella fun. The song really reminds me of cold Christmas nights “paglamig ng hangin, hatid ng pasko… nangugulila sa king gunita.. ang mga nagdaang natin pasko….” There we were the only one who presented a very gloomy song but we got the most applause. :)

At the same time was the giant lantern making contest. We again didn’t won. What they had forgotten to tell us is that they need the most trashed-looking lantern one could ever make. I should have just stole all the wrappers and empty bottles here. But on the good side, proverbs our sister room won finally! After months of long drought…

Walk for a cause… I woke up at around 5:00 because my service said he’s going to pick me up at 5:30 but guess what? At 6:00 I was still home. Anyways arriving at the scene, I saw stalls selling yummy puto bumbong but I just couldn’t eat yet. We are walking how many meters so I might get problems… so at 7am ¼ of the entire population of my school yes! That few… walked around the commercial district of our city…. Haaayy… tiring!! While the rest was at school not sweating and catching their breath.

Xmas party… it was cool! Our class had really enjoyed the game like the card relay and funny bone eheeh!!! The human trip to Jerusalem which I took part to was really unique. We also have the year end awardees which was all for those really stupid incidents…. Next came the exchange gift that was soooo dry… then we eat! The baked spareribs and tropical chicken was realllyyy yummy!!! And after this came the most boring afternoon. I went out to give my tokens to my friends and even receive my own present given by erherm najeee!! Hehe.. Jason also gave me a peck on my cheeks and so did najee!! Ehehe… :) we also watched this battle of the bands which did nothing but to hurt my eardrums so we just have to go… at 3:15 it was time to go and see each other next year….

I must be making a fool out of myself here….

Trying to update my blog every so often huh? Nevertheless, this is what I was born to do guys so please, just bear with me!

I am currently munching on French fries and caramel ice cream from guess where... JOLLIBEE! Imagine the long queue waiting for your order to be taken and then deciding just to have it as a “take out” taena.
Somebody also stole my dream Cadbury; I left it in the fridge last night.

I went out of the house and drag my way to the nearest mall when I suddenly felt something was TOTALLY wrong!! And im very correct. I didn’t have my bag with me. Ha-ha... Goddamit! How am I suppose to go to a mall without my fucking bag!!! So I turn around once again and returned for that stupid absent-minded bag.. shit shit shit!

And upon entering the mall, I was immediately overwhelm by the great smell of coffee and rum cake.. starbucks here I come!! I didn’t mind that I only have p2ooo on my wallet which im about to regret.

Big brown box

I just finished hauling all my stuff for my Christmas cleaning. You know, dusting everything and deciding whether it meets its fate on the big brown box or the trash bin. Christmas spirit is really round the house already!!

As I opened a dusty old shoebox… there was a lot of dust obviously! And lots of papers and cards. Hmm,,, my memory box! It’s been a long time since I last opened this!!

Piles and heaps of letters and post came scrambling as the box gave away. Wow! There are soo many letters I don’t know where to start!

Then like a time warp, I began to walk down my own memory lane and started reminiscing. With each inhale of air, the environment changes and brings me back to my freshmen year and when I exhale, im my old self again.

“I'm here to love you, to hold you in my arms and to protect you. I’m here to learn from you and to receive your love in return. I’m here coz there's no other place to be.” –message in a bottle

Dec. 06
The pains of being human

Why does emotional pain can’t kill? Im tired, sicked, and exhausted from everything this world have to offer!!! We never die out of pain but sometimes like now I wish I just could! The worst pains are even sometimes those that doesn’t have any remedy… and that is not comforting to know.

And I just came to realize that happiness is filled with so many paradox we mortals can’t just ride on. It’s like for a second you are very happy but then you suddenly realize that it will not stay long or something bad is bound to happen since a good thing occurred! See? We people understand that happiness never last long, long enough for us to hold on to it. Sighs.

Why does it looks so different from here? I wish I never have to grow up man, then I really would still have laugh at 500 things/day than now at 50 or less. There always come a time when we have to chose the road to maturity or be left behind forever trapped in childhood. This I believe one of the most hardest decision ever to come to humans. Another sigh

Time is one of our greatest enemies, I believe. With us aging, everything growing old and of course everything coming to an end. Time is never enough and would never agree with us.

“It's funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception.” –Ally Mcbeal

Dec. 05
The countdown begins

My head is throbbing.

You know trying to understand this molar mass and Avogadro’s number is really mind and brain cell squeezing!! Haay,,, thank god calculator’s were made for a reason.

On top of that, I have to vocalize for our upcoming and non-progressive choral fest. Shitz! It’s always been like this! The contest was a week away and we haven’t accomplished a single thing!! Even the contest piece itself!! You know this school really sucks. Imagine we have eight sections using all precious time and energy practicing and only two would continue in the finals! How pathetic!! I am seriously considering to just back-out than to be embarssed and pressured! We also have this gigantic lantern making contest! Just because this is pampanga doesn’t mean we have to partake in these hula balopa!!
Sis. Ida morin, I know you have a very kind heart and have the best intentions for the school but I don’t want you here cause I have to walk like 5 miles on the day of Christmas party?? And with our super baduy jogging pants and centennial t-shirt!! Wow! And you treat us as if we’re all part of the justice league think spiderman, captain planet and batman!!

And, and the names of all people close to me now surfaces with their goofy grins since it’s gift-giving season once again. Sighs. That’s the reason why my head was throbbing. I am tired, exhausted and now bloked!! What more could I asked for?? Well, lola is coming home so she just provide ample moolah or I’ll scream!!

Dec. 04 2005
I have nothing to do again so im updating my blog… as usual and you know guys, I don’t really know if im making any sense here… am I? I mean I think I just ramble on and on with my stuff and endless kwentos here.. there is no profundity! Anyways, who are really those deep persons?? Huh??

Someone had told me a story about our friend who was stucked at a ministop with his friend and a group of haggard looking blood-shot eyes boys who kept saying “mamatay kana!”. Our friend was looking at them kasi and was giving them the strange and petrified look so ayun… he just wants to run away but his friend has “rayuma” so know what he did? He grabbed at the tray and prayed he wouldn’t have to use it ha-ha!!! Thankfully, he really didn’t use it. Wush!

And my interest was rouse by tanghalang ateneo’s play entitled “nasan si kaliwete?” hmmm.. Pretty pathetic if you asked me but hovering over the press release…it made me change my mind. The play talks about the urban people and the economic problems of the depression period. Well, in my opinion they could just taped what’s happening outside their gates and they could get more realistic and dramatic scenes there. Haha,, well, I think that it’s a good play and must see. Think im advertising them? Well shut it out dude!! I just happened to love the school and the topic whaha!!

“im scared…of not being with you” –a walk to remember

Non-progressive blues

Whew… one of the most hatest season of the year. This is the time when everyone is in a rush and no one knows what he or she is to do, forgets it and walks away.
This December itself, we have the following activities that are all to be held before dec. 16 when school officially closes for the holidays.

English week
Math-science week
Choral fest practices
Huge Lantern making contest- WHERE WOULD THE SCHOOL USE LANTERNS THAT HUGE!!
Tagisan ng talino
Choral fest elimination
Operation joy-MEANING BEING FORCED TO PAY MONEY FOR POOR PEOPLE
Walk for a cause-GETTING YOURSELF SWEATY AND SMELLY ON YOUR XMAS PARTY
Choral fest finals

How are we suppose to finish all these extra-curricular activities in barely 2 weeks? They must have their heads super cracked! In addition to that my dear friends, we still have the undying team-ups of assignments, quizzes, projects, research and reports to still worry about. So what’s up with this school? Earth to hfa and Ida Morin!! Heller? I don’t believe that education was liked this back then! Isn’t simplicity the way of st. benedict?

Blue Periwinkle

…hi guys…

It’s been a long time since I wrote something here…. Well ok lang ang mga happenings ngayon…

For once… advent na which means Christmas Is round the corner na!! whohoo!! Boracay bound na ako… whohoo… ang saya!!!
And sa school gosh!! Ang daming extra curricular activities ngayon!! Shino-shorten period nga ang mga subjects to pave way for them like the lantern-making contest tapos choral fest then walk for a cause pa namen then operation joy and Christmas party shet!!! By the way, we lose sa play.

Ang Christmas wish ko ay sana makapunta ako sa Disneyland Hongkong… or kahit sa hongkong lang!! may magbibigay pa ng pera sakin?? Haay… I long to shopped there…

And I really like this model ornussa cadness!! Shet!! She’s a goddess!! Ang ganda ganda niya!! And she’s just not sexy!! Toned pa ang kanyang mga muscles!! Perfect figure talaga siya!! Wow!!

I went to the paskuhan village last nov. 26 para sa annive celeb ng isang radio station and they featuring 3 bands namely hale, mymp and ofcourse!! SPONGECOLA!! Ganyan ang order of performance nila and yael’s guitar even lose a string haha!! Litte quirks,,, hehe…

And may special friend ako ngayon, actually crush ko siya!! Initials: NJ hehehe!!! Cute siya pwomise and he looked like the drummer of my fave band!! (Hamlet!)

“You cannot find true love where it does not truly exist. And you cannot hide it where it truly does.” –kissing a fool

just happened to past by,,,, hehe....

im here at our library for our research... whehehe.

we had our club meeting awhile ago and made our dummy sheet..

yun lang... waste of time talaga,,, and the choral fest is tomorrow na,,,

pray for us!!

Blue Periwinkle

…hi guys…

It’s been a long time since I wrote something here…. Well ok lang ang mga happenings ngayon…

For once… advent na which means Christmas Is round the corner na!! whohoo!! Boracay bound na ako… whohoo… ang saya!!!
And sa school gosh!! Ang daming extra curricular activities ngayon!! Shino-shorten period nga ang mga subjects to pave way for them like the lantern-making contest tapos choral fest then walk for a cause pa namen then operation joy and Christmas party shet!!!

Ang Christmas wish ko ay sana makapunta ako sa Disneyland Hongkong… or kahit sa hongkong lang!! may magbibigay pa ng pera sakin?? Haay… I long to shopped there…

And I really like this model ornussa cadness!! Shet!! She’s a goddess!! Ang ganda ganda niya!! And she’s just not sexy!! Toned pa ang kanyang mga muscles!! Perfect figure talaga siya!! Wow!!

I went to the paskuhan village last nov. 26 para sa annive celeb ng isang radio station and they featuring 3 bands namely hale, mymp and ofcourse!! SPONGECOLA!! Ganyan ang order of performance nila and yael’s guitar even lose a string haha!! Litte quirks,,, hehe…

And may special friend ako ngayon, actually crush ko siya!! Initials: NJ hehehe!!! Cute siya pwomise and he looked like the drummer of my fave band!! (Hamlet!)

This are two of my many favorite short love stories… so im sharing it with you guys,,, enjoy!! The salty coffee really touch my heart while the goft of love is simply love at it’s best form.. haaay!!! Love..
The Salty Coffee
He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he was sonormal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, and she thought to herself, "Please, let me go home..."
Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee." Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?" He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there." While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home... Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.
That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee! Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, and then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said, "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything... Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste... But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."
Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste of salty coffee?" She replied, "It's sweet."
Pass this to everyone because love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but HOLD ON!!!!

A Gift of Love
The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.
It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark.
Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.
Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.
Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again.
"I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me."
Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day.
He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat.
Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.
On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"
The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?"
The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.
Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.