Wednesday, March 01, 2006

I always found politics and our country’s economic crisis as the two most mind-numbing subjects I could ever write here in my humble blog. But now as manila is seized with great confusion and chaos, I think im ought to now react about what is happening to my country nowadays. Here’s a short article about it.

After watching “dekada 70” and reading a lot of books about martial law, edsa and NPAs, I found myself hoping I could somehow walk back into the past. I often wish that I could warp my 16 year old body and drag it to the pres. marcos period. I would like to experience how is it to be living in that time: Everyone’s afraid for their lives, media being controlled by the government, imposing hell curfews and the military aspect of Philippines In control.

I dunno but that is what I feel. Mom always find that idea ridiculous “you would never want to live in that time… you won’t stand it… you don’t know how it feels like to be there.” But I guess that is where im coming from. I don’t know but would want to. And then out of the blue, my prayers are answered.

After the stampede at ultra, the e-vat and coming r-vat, the st. Bernard tragedy here comes what I’ve been waiting for or something to that content.

Last feb. 24 president Gloria announced that we are in a state of emergency. This was supposed to be a celebration of the 20th anniversary of edsa and Gloria gave us all a very surprising present.

She said it was all the rallies and coup threats that made her arrive in her decision. Just the morning before my ball, the AFP had found papers stating of the plans of people or groups of it to destabilize the government and erap in the wee hours of the morning was forced by police to transfer places. Then different groups of people are gathering [anakbayan, haytt 10, magdalo etc] to protest and express their sentiments [that is for Gloria to step down] by mid afternoon, there was already a huge crowd and even politics biggies had joined the march going to the ninoy monument? Im not sure. However, police were on the opposite streets determined not to let them in and this was in ayala ave. I don’t know what happened next but the next day, some of the leaders of famous anti Gloria parties were being detained and/or chased. Even the daily tribune is now under the watchful eyes of the police for being too sharp-eyed to the administration.

Now what is all about this? Is it martial law period again? I think our situation is nearing that stage already and mom agrees. Well I believe her, after all she knows the tell tale signs cause she experienced it already. I seem excited about what is happening right now but also bothered since many people are affected in someway actually im changing that sentence, everyone is affected in someway.

Im just wondering how could she go out and still loiter pretending everything is all right and under control?. Maybe then it’s tactics, I mean no one in there right mind would admit that something’s wrong right? Coz that would imply that they are weakening and the people are right all along.

Hmmmmmmmm… just a thought

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Ersatz, dictionary and grand ball


---------------I just finished reading “a series of unfortunate events” by lemony snicket. Of course I won’t tell details and spoilers but the book is guaranteed to be a good read.

And let me tell you why.

*you won’t have a problem understanding foreign words since the book doubles as a dictionary. For example, café salmonella was not just a restaurant, but a theme restaurant that simply means a restaurant with food and decorations that follow a certain idea. see? So there’s no reason for you not to understand it then.
*the plot and turn of events is as hilarious as it can be.
*it shows you that life will not always be kind especially to good people. You would always be asked to go an extra mile from your expectations. To go a notch higher. I think that’s very well true.

Well on the party side,. our recently concluded ball was a bomb!!...

And let me again tell you why.

*I was with great people.
*I dirty danced with a teacher haha.
*I slow danced with a person I never imagine I can dance with.
*everyone had a great time
*the food was (surprise!) delicious…
*teachers were very lenient.
*great music
*my pumps went that “extra mile”
*lots of steal shots
*a night to remember

I would like to thank Mrs. Leonida Licup, my great mom, for fixing me and making me look so much prettier that night.
To my cousin ,jhing, for the beautiful ball dress she helped me sourced.
Psalms, thanks for the wonderful night. Special mention goes to najee, ryan kim and bobidee who almost entered into a fight that night.

Time to plan the next grad ball.

Friday, February 24, 2006

Whoopee.
The party is near.
It’s now near
I can feel it
I can smell it
I can walk through it
But…
It’s nowhere I can see.
*toink*
Napansin ko lang.

Ang ikli ng mga entries ko sa blog.
Gaya nito.
Do you know how to measure love???
Do you know how to assess evil deeds?
Do you know how to quantify life?
Do you?

“Can you please teach me how.”


I can’t seem to find my way out.
Hahahaha.

One of the most stressing and draining day of my life is about to come. Tomorrow. When my day would begin with a quiz, test all throughout the day thus ending the day still with a quiz. They count 7 all in all and that includes practicum.

Isn’t that a very happy thought?!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Uy, nagbasa ako ng mga blog.


Mga isang oras akong nakatulala sa harap ng ty screen ko at nakanganga sa mga entries na nasa harap ko.

Wala lang. ang aksyon kasi.

May tungkol sa past nila, sa mga ex, sa school at yung pinaka common eh yung “how was my day shit?” haha. How pathetic. Wala na bang makikinig sa mga boring nilang kwnto na “ay, si ganito ganyan” or “alam mo ba na si blah blah blah..” kaya nasa blogger, xanga, livejournal, myspace or friendster sila? Kinakausap pa nga nila minsan yung sarili nila doon. Haha. What’s wrong with the world mama? People acting like they got no BRAINS mama. Fuck. Aydana yung ibang blog pa nga mayroon tungkol sa pagkain nila sa cafeteria for the billion time. Gaad. Wala na ba silang ibang maisulat? Parang napacommon na ang pagkain (syempre) at sa cafeteria gawin to o canteen. Mas astig sana kung kumain ka kasabay ng bio teacher mo habang nagdidiscuss ng cells at may demo pang kasama o kaya kumakain ka sa loob ng teacher’s lounge habang nagbibihis sila. Diba mas exciting isulat yun? Diba? Diba? Oo. Im right haha im soo funny. See? Natawa ako. Naiihi na ako sa sobrang tawa.

Isa pa, hindi ko magets ang mga tao na panay ang lagay ng pictures sa blog. I mean napaka narcissus naman non. Ano ka? Salamin na kahit saan meron o political media? Ngek. Cheeseball! Kung gusto mo ng outlet ng mga pacute mong pictures, bili ka nalang ng potoalbum. O kaya fwendster, dun ka magpaulan ng mga litrato mong pangsqwat sa langaw. Di naman mahal ang potoalbum, naawa naman ako sayo kung di ka makabili. Pero tangina, bat nakakapaginternet ka? Gago! Ulul!! Haha. Dana im talking to myself. Earth to Jacqueline!!!

Napansin niyo baa ko? Kung ganon ako ay successful dahil nagpapapansin ako. Haha. Foony!!!
Rawwww.

Postscript: id explain my current song sana kaya lang pota tamad na ako at inaantok. Next entry nalang, alam nio naman…. Im such a loser for updating this blog so often. “L”

Current mood: ranting
Current song: yung sa kotex commercial, yung si denniz yung may period!
Shoe shopping

----------------why are decent shoes in shortage today huh?!! I was going to buy shoes for the coming ball of ours and when I got tot his bazaar, there was nothing but trash. Forgive me but that is what those stores there epitomize. (it was my first time to go here since I didn’t have much time left to go to galle.)

Come on, don’t you have better sources or supplier???! Grrrrr….
Anyways, I still managed to buy one. This time I went to rob galle na. It’s a silver sling back from Le Donne. Not too high and not too kitty heeled, in other words… PERFECT.

Now if I just know how to fix my hair.

Monday, February 20, 2006

My first love

………well im in a super honest mode today. Please exonerate!

My first love was back then in 1999. I was uhm N yrs. Old (I wont divulge the real age goodness) but all I can say is that I was way too young for love then.

He was your typical guy, tall dark and well not really that handsome but to me he was my idea of Mr. Right. My own version of prince charming. He was my service mate so I had the opportunity to ogle at him everyday before and after classes. I observed how he talk, laugh, play and every verb you can imagine here and I wouldn’t care less. He was perfect and that was all to me. It was true love for me.

But then, fairy tales do end in sad finale, such is my fairy tale. He started going out with a girl (a good friend of mine) and finally blossomed into something else. I wouldn’t elaborate on what I feel then because that is so past but one thing I will always remember is that 4 years after my first love, I haven’t gotten over him.

I may have lead a different life then, had other great loves but I will always love to go back to the time of tall dark and not so handsome but kindhearted guy and feel the sugar rush over and over again.


Current mood: uhm,, sugar full
Current song: you are my first romance! :)
Queries and Riposte
?Napaiyak ka ba ng kalaro mo?
>>>ako ang nagpapaiyak
?What turns you on
>>>character and effortless hotness?Lina-lock nyo ba ang bahay nyo sa gabi? >>>yep.
?nagco-commute kaba?
>>>oo naman.?Ilang beses mo nang nabagsak celphone mo?
>>>I don’t :)?Ano ang mas madalas mo pindutin: Delete orBackspace?
>>>backspace!?Raincoat, umbrella o sugod sa ulan?
>>>when with someone, umbrella but all alone sige sugod!?sometimes you hate cellphones because___?
>>>they need load?
?Paano mo patayin ang ipis?
>>>squash them off until the green comes out ?Anong una mong pinupuntahan sa mall?
>>>none, I just wonder all around… Nahulog ka na ba sa Stairs?
>>> no, not yet. Tripped pede pa?Msg mo sa mahal mo?
>>>putangina mo!! J.o.?gano ka ka-loyal?
>>>hanggang sa magsawa ako.?Naiilang ka ba pag ikaw lang ang kumakain atnakatingin lang ang mga kasama mo?
>>>ah, depends kung gusto ka nilang kainin o gusto nilang kainin kinakain mo ?Bakit may mga taong manhid?>>>you just can’t accept what they have for you
?pano ka magalit?
>>>uhm.. weird! I shout and cuss and throw things (a lot of them) ?nagmumura ka ba sa harapan ng magulang mo?
>>> yes! ?Anong Maganda/Masarap Gawin sa Outing w/Barkada?
>>>talk, picture, chat, bond, whatever seems fun doing thenn?akanganga ka ba pag natutuLog?!? o haLf-cLosed ang mata?
>>>tulo laway eh.?How was your 2005 Summer?
>>>cool ?sinu-sino mga pics sa wallet mo?
>>>myself and some friends?How long was your longest telebabad?
uhm… 6-7 hours I guess… that was a long time ago eh?Sino unang nagbababa ng phone, ikaw o ungkausap mo?
>>>ako usually kasi I fall asleep and leave them talking by themselves.
?Gaano ka kalakas uminom?
>>>depends on what to drink, I can gulp down 5 straight bottles of c2
?Ano ang ginagawa sa kaibigang taksil?
>>>kill them and leave their body rotting on earth.
?Alam mo ba ang adidas pero hindi shoes?
>>>yep, yung food
?Ano ang pangarap mo nung bata ka?
>>>be a very rich doctor someday
?Paano magexplain and teacher mo sa math?
>>>dinig hanggang zamboaga
?Masaya ka ba kapag nasasaktan ang kaaway mo o naawa ka?
>>>I feel victory hahaha!
?Nadapa ka na?
>>>yes, lots of childhood scars to prove

Friday, February 17, 2006

Im listening to hale right now.

I must admit they are pretty good, inspite of the rumors plaguing them.
Broken sonnet is my favorite track. Well from the title itself you’d get the meaning right. That is if you have sense!

…………..anyways I love the song………………

I want to spend every possible time here on earth with that one-person special to me.

“I’ll concede on the line of this song of melancholy”

I always hate to tell what I really feel since it always yields unfavorable results. Gloom and sadness envelops me as the day went on. It feels like floating but in reality, I wasn’t and there’s no possible way how can that happen.

“I don’t care what they say…what they do”

“Cause tonight, I’ll leave my fears right behind”

Life constantly moves for you to be able to do something. It gives you your purpose and meaning in life. Precisely, what is the purpose of life and how sure you are that life is thinking in the same way too?

“I’ll be right at your side…lie down right next to me and I’ll never let go”

Tears are falling from eyes, but they are not mine. I see facades of people rushing and running through an end. However, when they reach it, they find themselves in a bigger tunnel. More loopholes arise and the pain never left.

“Still, I see tears from your eyes, maybe im not just the one for you”
THEOREMS AND WHYS???

Totoo lang, naiinis ako ngayon at ang nakakabaliw ditto eh sa walang dahilan ang pagmumukmok ko. Ewan, ganun nalang walang raging feeling sa aking puso o isip at katawan.

Napakafaraway ng aking utak sa katawan. Even though it tries to catch up, I know…it can never outrun much more keep up with it. Am I depressed? Maybe,,, I guess so

Theorems are fun pala. Geometry kami ngayon with gemma tas may test kami sa chemistry. Pota wala pa akong magets. Tas may project ako sa social at reporting sa Filipino at history nyeta wala akong visual. Tas psychology pa tas term paper. Fak! March 01 ang deadline nito. Tas chapter one palang ang tapos namen! Tas yung science investigatory namen wala pang nangyayari. March early week din ang cut-off date. Oral defense pa shet. Terror clasp now its razor like pincers around my neck, choking me… aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!

Bakit ang teachers march ang gustong date ng submission? Tas hindi pa sila masasayahan kasi gagawin nilang sabay sabay lahat ng mga requirements. Putragis.

Current mood: nahihilo at nagpapalito
Current song: ano ba naman ito diba?
……………..^

Im currently munching on fish crackers.

Nothing’s new though, I’ve been doing since morning which continued till late afternoon until now.

I heard blue moon a while ago. My friend was very oblivious that I cried at that movie. (right in the cinema! I was actually bawling in my seat as I tried to hide streams of tears and colds under the control of my jollibee tissue)

I’m doing my review of related literature in my research and so far, im losing my patience in it. Honestly. This stuff is very problematical, phew! and might I say that our teacher is LEAST HELPFUL in this class.

Current mood: bloated and piffy and guzzler :)
Current song: gunita ko’y ikaw habang nahihimlay

Wednesday, February 15, 2006



Wheeewwwww………

Im not going to say anything… im posting pictures to tell you exactly what transpired ehehe… just captions of the funny moments… running commentaries!! Whoo!

Am I not cool???


SANA LANG DI GINULO HAIR KO NOH!! GRRR…

GROUP PICTURE WITH THE MAIN MAN
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Saturday, February 11, 2006

Feb. 10
10 Minutes of Fame with Me

School: Holy Family Academy
Name: Ma. Jacqueline Licup
Birthday: March 14
Course:
Year: 3rd
Height: 5’5
Motto: struggle is nature’s way of strengthening
Single or in a relationship: Single
Favorite subjects: Anything that has to with humanities or communication
Favorite books: Davinci code, The Alchemist, The Little Prince, Veronica Decides to Die, Tuesdays with Morris and The road less traveled. I love books :)
Favorite musicians: sponge cola! And most of the opm artist today. Also Green day, Fall out boys, cold play and Maria Carey.
Celebrity crushes: yael and yan yuzon. Brad pitt and Chad Michael Murray in actors.

Finish the sentences>

>I am special because I don’t change for the sake of others. I am who I am, take it or leave it.

>The youth shouldn't take drugs because drugs put an end to a good future.

>When I go to McDonald's I usually order chicken burger meal with large fries and caramel sundae.

Questions>

>what do you think are the current problems plaguing the country? The country is full of corrupt officials who did nothing but to hinder progress.

> What do you think you and your fellow youth can do to solve the problems you've mentioned? Espouse our moral values and build our education. It is only possible if we becomes apologist of what is the truth and stand by it.

>If you were given a chance to speak with Pres. Arroyo, what issues would you discuss with her? Poverty. This issue has been passed from presidents to presidents yet nothing has happened to entirely obliterate it.

> What're your extra-curricular activities? I write for our school paper and help in the school plays. I play basketball but stopped due to paucity in time so I just now cheer in the background. And I also dance [social] for our school programs.

> How did you overcome shyness? Im by nature an assertive person. I’ve never been shy :) I guess it’s just in my disposition to be buoyant and jaunty.
Feb 08

Im so stupid…

Alam niyo tama na naman si taena [haha, pasakalye pala sa kanya ko nakuha yung idea sa blog kong ito].

Fuck “what ifs”

Minuret ako nitong mga walang hanggang tanong nito. Tangina. Ilang luha ba ang pumatak dahil dito? Ilang gabi ang di ko tinulugan kakaisip ng mga sagot… at hindi rin naman ako nabigyan talaga ng sagot.

Masakit ang magisip ng ganito. Balet kanyo? Kasi nga naman pinapatay mo lang sarili mo sa mga bagay na tapos na. nagpapakalunod tayo sa isang basong tubig na juice ang laman? Masakit diba? Oo.. napakasakit talaga. At nakakadagdag lang lalo sa paghihirap na dinadaanan. Tapos tayo ang nagsasabi na “ayaw ko na” o “bakit ganito” or “tama na” ang gago noh? Ganun nga siguro ang tao. Adik sa sakit hehe.

"the most painful thing in being is remembering the future, particularly the one you'll never have." –joan of arcadia

kaya ako, haha tama na ang state of pity ko sa sarili. Putchang buhay naman. Ang sagwa, ako ang nagbibigay ng sakit sa sarili ko. Nasaktan na ako ng ibang tao tapos sasaktan ko ulet sarili ko? Hindi ako tanga. Haha. Wish ko lang. Ouch. Eto na ba ang katapusan? Sana…
Feb. 05

Mahal mo ba ako?

Oo, ikaw

Ikaw nga ang tinatanong ko. Bakit? May problema ka ba don?

Hindi mo ba ako pwedeng mahalin? Hindi ba? Bakit? Sa anong dahilan at pipiliin mong siya kaysa mahalin ako?

Dahil ba sa itsura? Sa ugali? Sa estado sa buhay? Ano ang basehan mo ng pagpili? Bakit ganon ka pumili?

Mahirap ba akong mahalin? Masasaktan ka ba kung pagbibigyan? Minsan lang ako darating sa buhay mo, bat mo palalagpasin ang isang pagakakataon? Baka pagkaalis ko, magsisi ka at pinakawalan mo ako.

Isang pagkakataon lang naman. Malay mo baka…. baka lang naman magtagal at kailanman hindi na tayo magkahiwalay.
Feb. 01

The child lifts up her tear-streaked face.


“Do what you have do”


with a sharp thud she fell to the ground

Then she felt no more pain.

Jan. 31

People constantly change.

That’s the truth.

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I know, it’s just that it’s hard to let go.

Don’t it??

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

An open letter to a dear friend


It is when you hurt the most that you love the most.


Everything is a blur. I am not in my right order of thinking but I’d continue with this anyways since there is no other way. If this is where it has to happen. Then let it.

What a crazy thing.

When time comes and you have to set someone free, [That person maybe a friend, parents or boyfriends]you try to stop it you can’t.

All your efforts are futile. And we the persons left behind has no choice but to accept things as they come.

Maybe, it wasn’t entirely your fault. I have my own share in the guilt too. But this won’t all start have you told me the truth from the START. I could have understand you. I could have listened to your explanations. I could have explain my side. but no. you didn’t explain and that damaged our friendship. You didn’t want to explain to me. You didn’t want to lose that friend without even thinking you can lose ours in the process.

Then you started to shut yourself up. You close your doors to us for someone else. I tried to reach out, hold on to you but you let me go. You started running before I can reach you and then you were gone. It was then that maybe it’s time to move on and grow as separate persons.
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But on second thought, maybe im not. There are times im wondering why is this all happening. I feel like crying and asking you what this had to be the situation?

WHY?

That is the question.

the end
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Tell me im pathetic and probably I am. Im tired of this myself. Can anyone help me? Just teach me how to make the hurting stop. Please….
For smart people just like you…
Got the brains to answer this?
Think of words ending in -gry. Angry and hungry are two of them. There are only three words in the English language. What is the third word? The word is something that everyone uses every day. If you have listened carefully, I have already told you what it is.

Now, comment back if you have the guts.
Current mood: who wants to be a millionaire?
Current music: I’ve got the power yeah baby!
Para sa mga walang magawa sa buhay nila-

I am currently in a state of ennui.

There’s nothing to honestly talk about.

Nothing to speak of.

To do

To see

To explore

To go to….

Oh well, I just post senseless things then like….

If trees were made higher than us humans in terms of intelligence… would they be called humans and WE trees?

Can you imagine if we were the ones in the jungle, scavenging for food and the animals are the one civilized e.g. driving, cooking working etc…

Or humans are the main attractions in fairs and circus instead of dolphins, parrots or other creatures? And they are the ones selling cotton candy and popcorn.

Can you imagine a giraffe presiding a holy mass?

Or police zebras hunting down robber dog, pusher cat and drug lord lizard?

I think the world will be in a better state condition.

Haha…

Im serious.
Just this weekend nakausap ko up close and personal for the ferst time in our whole lives together ang isang tao that di ko talagang akalain na makausap. I mean, yes would you believe na for 7 years nakakasama ko siya and yet ngayon lang kami maguusap ng ganito:

Ako: bear, do you know the difference between TOTOO and TAMA?

Tesa: I think there’s a difference…

Ako: do you know what is it?

Teas: totoo is real and tama is right

Ako: how pathetic bear, I didn’t told you to give their meanings, I should have just read the dictionary had it been that way.

After a long pause…

Tesa: you believe in reality and that could b wrong or right and if u believe in that reality, that truth for you…

Me: ah, yes bear… you’ve hit it.

Tesa: you? what would you have chose? The truth or right?

Actually, up to this moment I don’t have an answer but here is what I said

Me: the truth.

Tesa: but what if it will onli give you pain no matter how real it is already? Sumtyms we have to accept dat there is the fake reality… in order to move on

Me: what do you mean?

Tesa: kc u know that in d end nothing happened, dat u just hope for nothing.

Me: ah yeah, but people aren’t here to have fun. People lived to be hurt and that’s about it. You only have to accept fakes. There’s no other way out.

Tesa: yeah so why does it fil so right when its so wrong? Or how can it be wrong wen it fils so right?

Me: oh, you said “feel” feelings and emotions are subjective. Either wrong or right.

Tesa: so the one you choose to love is the wrong one?

Me: no, it’s the feeling that’s wrong.

Tesa: why?

Me: for example…. Ur in love with this married guy, sure it’s not wrong to love but reality sets in that you could never be with that guy, not even close. So you move on, that’s right. The truth can only comes after the right.
Tesa: oh I see,

Me: it hurts,. There are a lot of rules, complications and everything else.

Tesa: yeah, I agree…

Me: so you? what are you choosing?

Tesa: why suddenly you’re asking me the question? Oh well, the truth too maybe,,, im going to let it go..

Me: ah ok…

Tesa: new situation, if you realize you love someone late, what are you going to do?

Me: suffer the consequences then… it’s your fault anyway, like me…

Tesa: oh? Why?

Me: I was left with no choice then but to do so.

Tesa: nagsisi ka?

Me: ofcourse, who wouldn’t?

Tesa: that hurts….

Me: so much… given another chance I would have done differently

Yeah, up to this second, chinito boi. If ever you’re reading this and im sure you are. Im regretting that moment I let you go. My compuction would go on and on thus never ending. Your dimpled face standing at the doorway and smiling at me would forever haunt me as I lay down to sleep. You do understand that I did that not for myself but for you and only you. Now it is only in my dreams that I can hold and continue loving you just like before. The difference? There was never a past to start with.

Tears are falling… beep beep beep.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

oh my god, it was a wrong site!!

it's supposed to be this way....


www.taenawalangtitletongsitenato.tk
taenamogago.livejournal.com

there,,, im sorry for the stupid mistake
I have read a very interesting live journal today. [www.taenagagomo.Livejournal.com]

I know that I belong here to blogspot but I can’t help but take a glance to that attention-grabbing blog or journal or whatever.

I honestly doesn’t know what is his name [im sure of his gender though] or who he is or what he does or what not. But one thing is for sure, he writes pretty hard.

I know a lot of people use web log as a way to let out the shits and angst of their life. or rather for some, an online diary, which sucks by the way. But this certain “taena” used it for practice.

Yep people, practice for his part-time job… he wants to be a writer.

When I read the first entry [that means the latest, about the comments] I was like “what d hell was he trying to point out?” why does he have to care about those things blah blah blah oh well, some troubled misunderstood guy perhaps. Still, there was a certain feeling that reigns through the entries and the succeeding ones [the past entries idiot!] there was depth and substance though I can’t figure out just yet what was that.

And so, I continued reading his journal. Now I do get it, I think. He makes people feel his emotions. His emotions are raw and they really make you feel for him. Of what? I don’t know. That is what im still to find out.

I think im wasting my life and computer life reading his entries, but I don’t know!
It’s like im glued to it. That I just have to continue on and on. Oh well. I just have to.

Current mood: im dizzy
Current music: …and ignite your bones, I will try to fix you
Chocolates are addictive.

I have always been a fan of chocolates. Name it and surely, I have eaten it from Hershey to the plain choc nut.

Now I learned chocolates are stimulants. That’s probably the reason why the are said to trigger happiness on the eater. If so, then im an addict and I’d be too dependent on it that I’ll just have to continue taking it and eating it and pigging out. That is until im gonna be out of my mind then I’d be repulsive to everyone. I’d be confined to some asylum and be with lunatics and I’d spend the rest of my life in chocolate misery.

Not a happy dog right now. Aaawww,,

Current mood: addictive
Current music: I try to resist it, im addictive to you!

Friday, January 27, 2006

Illusions of grandeur

I wish I am a fairy.

Then I can grant everyone’s wish including mine. Then the world would be so much happier to live in. right?

Im gonna be a fairy complete with wand, an orb and those thin dancing with the wind silvery candy colored dresses. Then Im gonna grow wings just like tinkerbell and fly to never never land.

Oh, just how I wish I really can…

Current mood: fairily
Current music: when you wish upon a star to…. Get it you idiot!

Eto… labo!!


*I am pretty [well, screw you if you don’t believe. Nagiisa ka lang!! HAHA. Although they say pia, my sis, is prettier I think I am prettier!!
*I love books but this is no secret if you’re my classmate or family member.
*ako ay isang tanga pagdating sa pag-ibig. Yup. Sawi. Bigo. Nananalasa.
]may galit ako sa mga taong mayabang pero puro hangin… hindi lang ang tummy pati ulo and UTAK!!
]I believe na tayo ay ginawa ng diyos upang magpasaya. At hindi para magpaiyak so kung pwede lang noh!! Papatay ako ng tao pag pinaiyak niyo ako!!
]exception dun, umiiyak ako sa mga corny at baduy na love story.
~I have a very sunny disposition which can alter in a few hours. Fine seconds.
~natatawa ako sa mga tao na akala niya hindi nila ginagawa ang mga bagay na ayaw nila sa ibang tao.
~ang love ay parang tae. Kapag hindi na kailangan ng katawan ay ilalabas na. Taena naman!! Shet. Labo.
^puta! Gusto kong malaman bakit tao ang tawag sa tao? Kung bang puno ang pinakamataas na creation ni god sila ang tao at tayo ang puno???
^bakit may mga tao na sadyang manhid?? Haha. Isa ako sa mga yun eh!
^gusto ko ang drums. Problem arises when I play them.
Im tired…

Don’t let me even start with the whooping loads of schoolwork we have been given!! Packing shet talaga!! Uhm… di pa naman kami graduating ah!! Kainis tuloy…

Okey, but the good thing is, im getting almost enough sleep [rejoice! After months…] which is a miracle I tell you!!! It all began when I fell asleep at 9pm and then waking up a t 1am which cause me a great headache. So I promise myself im just gonna finish everything early if I can and sleep before time! Okey, I hope to do finish on time. Haayyy…. I sometimes have to go home late at night or early morning for that matter haha.

And magaaral na akong mabute!! Haha… Seriously, my grades are ok but nowhere satisfied. Share ko lang, I have a sinking feeling im getting LOWWW grades this quarter. Huhu.. Then I hope not. “Think positive nga diba?”

Current mood: scared of not being with you
Current song: im so sick with you, honey
People always think of me as this bratty and snotty schoolgirl. Boo stupid people!!

And that sucks! Ow, it never has to be that cruel!!


Well, it proves that it’s easier to be bad than prove them you’re good.
Ok, so now im gonna be grotesque, creepy, freaking mean!! Haha….

I didn’t like what I wrote since it sounds like im a monster or alien from mars heelllo E.T. so I think I have to laid it clear and slick, im now having a 90 degree and be mean… again HAHA.

Honestly, im not making any sense here so there. Who the hell makes one anyway?

Im not in the mood for songs and humor today bitch!!!
I was walking with my jacket pulled close to me in the cold muddy street when suddenly a roaring car swerved past me leaving me in a façade of walking cake only in the modified form of dirty brown.

Mind you people, he didn’t even have the nerve of get out that f&*!@$G car of his or her to apologize. He or she just discreetly passed after the nerve-wracking mud-drenching incident, which he has done.

The coolness of people now nowadays. Strains my nerves further.

Current mood: feels like a million poops. Eeww.
Current song: rain on me like it never rain before [huh?]
happy bday to my favorite drummer of all time.

“just how long can all time mean…hmmm?”

^basta whatever that may mean. Chris rocks!! Okeyiz?? He’s now 21 wow…. Legal adult na!! haha….

Always keep fit though I know I never have to say that. Heehee. Thanks for the ML dude :)

By the way, hi sa twin mo who happens to be a special friend of mine… heeheh…
Hi sponge!! Hi yael! Hi armo! Hi gosh!! Heellow chris! Eheehee,,
Hi pupil!! Hi ely! Hi yan! Hi bogz! Hi dok!!

Hellow to everyone else in between then…

Love,
An angel without at halo but has a harp

Current Mood: sitting pretty
Current song: happy birthday to you to the tune of stupid love!

Monday, January 23, 2006

ONCE IN A BLUE MOON

--- ok… finally I have watched this movie, I should have watched this sa cd kaya lang na raid and mga nagtitinda kaya wala silang mga kopya and it also leaves me wondering bakit MMFF copies lang ang kinuha leaving the others out… hmmm….

“blue moon… you saw me standing all alone… without a love of my own”

Ok… eto ang summary niya na tinry ko talagang iklian pwomise!!!

The story begins with the old man [manuel] being told na may cancer siya and that he is soon to die tapos sabi din na he already do all his unfinished business and enjoy his last months. He said na isa lang ang gusto niyang isayaw, si Corazon. Ok now flashback, 2 ang Corazon, yung isang taga maynila at yung isa obvious na gusto siya. Now gusto ni manuel si azon, that’s the girl’s nick pero gusto din nung isa pa nilang guy friend si domingo. Ayun. Tas si azon, nagging mutya ng place nila then gusto sanang isayaw ni manuel pero takot siya.. tht night pumunta si azon to say goodbye and even invited him to go with them pero since takot si manuel he obviously can’t so azon gave her half the necklace she was wearing and if mabuo yun meaning magkita ulit sila, sila talaga. Sabi din ni manuel na one day maisasayaw din siya.Ok time flies by at nag graduate na sila. Pumasok sa army sina manuel and domingo. Ayun… war time eto tas yun ditto na namatay si polo nung na capture sila ng Japanese. Then si manuel napunta sa hospital kung saan nagtatrabaho si Corazon na nurse… siya yung may gusto kay manuel, ayun may nanagyari sa kanila tas napreggy siya then nagpakasal sabi ni manuel wala na daw si azon, then ayaw niya isayaw si corazon may symbolical meaning pala yung bubong na sira tapos inayos daw ni mark kasi one night sabi ni Corazon na sabi daw ni manuel aayusin niya lahat pero di nangyari yun kasi mahal pa rin niya si azon. Edi yun nanganak na nga si Corazon tas iniwan niya para magkaroon ng space iniwan niya nag kalahati ng picture nila and if that will be mabubuo, they are really for each other. With that she left. Nakita ni manuel yung sulat but not the letter na napulot ng kanyang anak na itinago niya.
Back to the present, pinuntahan ni old manuel ang dating bahay ni Corazon pero la na siya tas sinindo siya ng kanyang anak [rod] and apo [kyle] nag alit yata sa mga kotse. Ayun nagpunta sila ng baguio and legaspi habang kinukwento niya ang kanilang love story ni Corazon [yung 2 ha,] tas akala ni rod na si azon ang hinahanap. Then nung nasa albay na sabi ni old manuel balik na sila and leave it all to fate.
Sa kanilang part eng world, nagsusulat si Corazon[yung mom ni rod] ng letters to find manuel. Ayun. Nga tas nakita ng isang program na nagrereunite ng mga nagkahiwalay then yun. Si kyle ang unang nakakita kay Corazon and she gives the picture tas yun nag reunite sila and si rod nakatanggap ng sulat [from his mother na nalate lang ng konte] na hinahanap nga siya tas yun sa hospital yun, si Corazon pala ang true love niya and hinahanap. Wow, sumayaw sila na hindi niya nagawa nun umiiyak na ako at his point.
Manuel also diedbut at least got his mission done. The other Corazon pala [first love] was the one who died early in the film.

Comments:

-I already know agad na c Corazon na nanay ni rod ang hinahanap/ true love why?
*yung bahay na pinuntahan ay yung dati nilang bahay
*old manuel was singing her favorite song, bluemoon
*he said to rod “maiintindihan mo rin”
but I was confused kasi sa legaspi, sabi sa Corazon ay adventurous pointing out to azon. Ayun!
-I love the way they used things to symbolize their lifes. Mala serendipity wit a twist!!
-kahit na ano palang mangyari si manuel and Corazon parin kasi diba kahit walang tv the letter would arrived. Talagang sila. Pure destiny. Meant for each other.
- I like what Corazon nung nurse pa siya said “true love ang hindi namamatay” and I agree!
-I also like what kyle said that bluemoon is all about 2nd chances. Proves just that.
-hindi ito ang normal kilig story kasi basta iba siya.
-naiyak ako sa last part yung finally naisayaw na si Corazon kasi sabi niya nung di diya naisayaw “lahat ay tamang tama, sayang, sana maulit. And it did after nga lang ng mag 50 years. Naiiyak talaga ako imagine!!
-true loves comes only once in a blue moon.
-naiiyak ako kasi alam ko hindi ito pwedeng manyari sa real life
-all in all, I love this film
-one question, kelan kaya narealize ni manuel na true love niya si Corazon??


Current mood: amazed at fate/destiny

Our field trip

Whew… our EOP was over… finally! But it was all good and fun. Want to know what happen? Ok! Kwento na to! [educational outbound program]

The bus trip: syempre saan pa ba mas magandang simula kundi sa simula. Nways, dumating ako ng 4:45 am. Nakita ko agad ang bus namen at sumakay ako. Isa pa lang ang classmate ko na andun pero umaapaw na ang mga kashare namen sa bus. Kwento kwento. Tapos dumating din si LBM girl. Ahaha!! Joke lang. ayun. Ay mayroon din palang blopper nun, yung bulaga!! Tuloy tuloy lang ang mga pangyayari hanggang sa mapuno ang bus. Tapos naghahanap ako ng araw pero ala eh. Di pa sumisikat! At sa wakas, after 7 years, umalis na kami. Ang masaklap ay hindi pa kami umaabot sa expressway ay inaatake na ang biyahilo ang katabi ko. Sabi ko hawag kang susuka dahil ihuhulog kita sa bus! At hindi nga natuloy. Samantala ako ay natulog muna dahil naaamoy ko na na nakakapagod ang mga next events.

Nung nasa nlex na kami, nagpapasa ng chizwiz and classmate ko tapos liver spread! Ay breakfast in bus! Solid astig. Ayun kumain kami tapos nagstopover ang supot ng pandesal samin at hindi na nakaalis kasi inubos na namen lahat!! Haha… ayun. Di ako nakuntento binuksan ko ang mini-ruffles ko. Ayun maya maya manila na kame, nag eenjoy kami sa mga billboards ng kung ano anong products. Ok nabuhay na ako dito at minsan nadaanan namen ang ibang bus. Feeling artista kaway ng kaway!! Haah… dumaan kami sa gma7 at nakakita kami ng ob van ng abs-cbn. Ayus. Tapos ngayon ko lang nalaman na magkatabi ang rustan’s, starmall at robinson’s pioneer. Pagkatapos ng marami pang malls, buildings at highways. Nasa slex na kami! Ayan nag stopover na finally, punta kaming treats at wala lang, nagpalibre ako ng lollipop at bumalik na ang bus. Ok! Tuloy na ang bus trip. Ayan,,, napunta na kami ng laguna. Ok lang cia civilized and yun. Basta ordinary place lang cia. Uh, at that moment friends, 5 hours na kaming nakaupo sa bus at there’s no sign na bababa kami soon. So mukhang pancakes na ang butt ko. Tapos nag lecture na ang aming guide at sorry to say ha, hindi siya magiging magaling na tour guide kasi utal siya!! Haha. At last after an hour dumating na kami pero nauna yung isang bus so sa kabila kami. Yung driver, hindi ko alam kung adik or wat pero sa bawat curve at maraming curve ha!! Lalo yatang bumibilis kaya ang effect, helo helo ako!! Ok! Baba na finally…. Tinry ko na mag cr kaso nakita ko yung cr nasa cliff at iniisip ko kung ilang tao na ang nag cr at nahulog dun.

The 1st lake: lake calibato actually, ineexpect ko na mala forest effect ang view pero nung kababa ko, shet! Ang baho!! TAPOS yung view ay isang area used for quarrying. May maganda actually pero basta di ko ma explain. Ok, lakad lakad tapos pababa yung steps and maliit ang steps!! Ayan adventure na may tubig tubig na and ofcourse! The risk na magslide ka. Ang babato ng lugar tapos di mo alam jinojoke ka pla nung bato at bibigay siya! Ok. Muntikan na ako pero naabot ko rin yung lake without any disaster happening to me. It was ok. Lake cia tapos may mga bahay and nagraraft!! Yun lang, ok!! The trip back was harder dahil hinihingal na ako!!

We took refuge in the bus and ate my super cold lunch. I wasn’t satisfied in any way. How pathetic. Labo!

2nd and 3rd lake: it was so far!! We literally have to go trekking and endless walking!! My my my!! And then we arrived at the lake pandin but we still have to go up so I’ll leave the story there later. Gagad kami so nagalis kami agad ng sapatos eh mamaya pa pla!! We proceeded to the upper lake, yes there still is!! Naku, it was the hardest part kasi may tale na!! we are going uphill!! And they way was really pataas like those of a mountain. The rope pa naman was so flexible, matabig lang ng isa it will follow,,, and they way was sosteep and high!! Nax puxa! Nevertheless I managed. Tapos ayun there are some parts na super dulas and I just didn’t think im gonna make it!! Shet talaga,,, bangin babagsakan koh!! Then yun finally naabot namen ang taas na talagang napakataas….we could see the overview of the lake yambo the 3rd lake, by the way… kambal pala yung 2 lake…. Lovers daw cila…. Okey after some story telling by our lola basyang,,, baba na… ayan na naman…. Kelangan kong kumapit kay gelo kasi super mahuhulog talaga ako!! Ayun success although muntik muntikanan na ahhaah…. Ligo na toh!! Balik kami sa 2nd lake…. Ayan…. Ang saya kase nagtampisaw kami… ahaha… ang basa talaga… and yung lake nay un pla ay mababaw lang sa side then biglang lalalim haha… muntik na naman akong madisgrasya kasi I forgot that!! Pumunta ako sa malalim… tapos mabato yung lupa nagslide ako and everytime I try to get up but nasusugat ako sa paa… so bute nakatayo parin ako.. ayun… ligo, basahan picture pala!! Haha… wid sr dheck as the official photographer and nurse and bear!! Haha… tapos rafting wow! Super it was mah first time and yun after wearin jackets, game na!! ang saya saya talaga! Iba yung feeling eh!! Yung raft nababasa ng tubig pero hindi kayo totally basa tapos ang sabi yung lalim nglake ay equal sa 6 tall coconuts… then bumaba na kami… ang lamig ng tubig!! Wow talaga.. tas yun…. Balik na sa bus to change….

Blooper: as I was walking with my trusty old tsinelas, suddenly sa sobrang ano nung mud, naiwan yung slippers tapos naka apak na ako eh wala na pala sa paa ko.,…haay.,..

Yun, nagpalit kami sa bus and ayun! Kinarir ha!! Dun nagpalit pati panty haha!! And yung driver pala di bumaba!! Haha… bastos!! Labo.
Ayun after din ng bois proceed na sa last lake….. sa civilized place napala toh!! Kain kain muna,,, pangrestore ng energenes…

Sampalok lake: thr biggest one, eto asensado…. May viewing deck siya and sa tabi ng parang town square… ayun we are not satisfied kaya bumaba pa kami and dun kami mismo sa tabi ng tubig,, ah may viewing deck then but if u wid just see it, at sa dami ng tao na nandun.. any minute parang babagsak but it was a great view ha… ganda talaga and ang lamig.. picture picture ulet then it started to rain… oh by the way, it was here wer u can borrow bike and go biking… but we didn’t, it was raining nga,,, we climbed steps ng parang ka2lad ng sa grotto sa baguio. Then bus na…. hhaaayyy,,,

Trip back home: Stopover sa collets para pasalubong, ayun.. ganun lang pala ang collets… akala ko may restaurant na o kung anuman…. Turns out wala lang.,,,, it just like a sari sari store…. Ngek!!
Ayan, low batt na talaga ko so I decided to sleep…. Zzzzhhh…. I woke up and it was the last stopover for the trip.,, wid lara and ryan ayun… cr and buy sa mcdo…. Cinnamon sticks rox!! Yumyum and so is mcdo… tas yun…. Nadaanan naming ang brent international school haha.. and on our way to manila na… I saw dasma, Corinthian gardens… akala ko galante yung labas, yun pala… ala lang,… maganda pa entrance ng village namen eh!! Tas yun, enjoy sa mga billboards and everything…..araneta din plaa!! Haha…. Yuin…. Kuya rjay and dexter had to say goodbye kasi sa manila na talaga sila.,… kaya yun…. Wala lang.,.. kwntuhan to d max and pahinga….
Tas angeles na… we are watching gulong ng palad yung nadapa c tin sa putik…. Ayun… tas hinatid na ako,,,, bye bye na!!
This is just a passing entry as I am in a hurry to do things. La lang… rushed!!

--- anyways… im amazed right now. A friend of mine told me she could play drums and that she actually plays in a band! To which I am green with envious kasi I can’t for the life of it play drums or any musical instruments! That pains me to torments!!

Music never even considered giving me a sprinkle of it’s beauty. Know why? Yes, I can memorize all those notes and melody but never let me put them in practice!! Kainis nga, bakit ganun? I love to learn and play guitar or piano or drums which totally rocks for me eh!! So maybe that’s why im so addicted to band now… because of their great capacity not only to sing BUT play instruments much more, write songs.. galing nila noh??

Current mood: amazed and cursed~!
The world of insane people

Im reading a book right now and im inspired by it. It’s about a girl who wants to die but then her plans are interrupted and is now given a few more days to live which leaves her wondering if she had really done the right thing.

I believe that people often get tired of routine. So they try to have alternatives and seek to do things the other way around. Don’t you think this people are insane? Trying to do things, which in a way can be considered WRONG.

Understanding life is really a big problem don’t you think so? We all only have our present which is very brief and then before you know it, present is already past and you? You are standing there all alone, still wrapped up in that moment when you are still trying to fathom things, it suddenly leaves you behind.

Take for instance, a tie… why has it been called a tie? Can’t we call it just a piece of colorful cloth wrapped around the neck to make you breath abnormally? Why does tie have to be formed?

Being insane, I suppose is a way easier living than this life. When you are one, you’re free to everything you wished. No one stops you for they understood the fact you are sick. But are you really one? If you run the risk of being different. Yes you are and I congratulate you for that. Insane people are better because they dare to be different, see how far they can go and that’s what sets them apart.

Current mood: insane

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Life as it is

Gemini is playing on my computer. Amidst much (and when I say too much it literally means thousands of times) airplay, I never gotten myself over this song! I dunno… the song looks like it has been made for me. Aww.. haha… the beat, lyrics, melody, meaning everything really makes my heart melt. Besides the fact that Yael sings it. Yeah, I just love it period!

Basta yung way ng pagkaka drums eh super astig, ramdam mo talaga yung kanta and yung boses super di ko ma explain pero alam niyo yun yung, wow!! And the lyrics are so emotional, haha… im being redundant here but yun talaga!! Masyadong madrama yung kanta and I think that what struck me to like it!

Okeiz, enough about them. Test is over and the result is not too good for me. Especially Christian living education and Filipino. I have a high risk of having a score below 70 out of the coveted 100 points test. And it is just because of sheer stupidity! I mean how stupid could I just get? I could now see it! My grades slipping down and swirling in the ground! Oh and chemistry! Balancing was so punyeta!!! I didn’t finish!! Shet!!! And that’s two poits each so that means -16 na agad ako in addition to my would be mistakes!! Haaayy,,, not too good. Anyways, I hope it won’t go down that loooowww….. ohhh.. im scared…. Im not satisfied with this test!!!

Monday, January 09, 2006


We part only to meet again

The mighty boundless waves may come; remembrance of it shall bring you near
And I will with you, go forever.
And at midnight’s silent hour
When brilliant planets shall guide the ocean
The name shall rise to heaven’s highest star
And mingle with my soul’s devotion.

I noticed the poem during one of my silent sessions and it really struck me.
It was of course by Edgar Allan Poe, which sadly was not completed.

I dunno why but every time I read these verses as if my heart is being tormented. Freaky huh? Yes it sure does.

Anyways,, im currently reviewing for our prelims… still…still… so I won’t be able to post until maybe Wednesday and this coming Friday is our educational outbound trip to Laguna. Seven lakes to be exact.

Ei, it’s only a few months before this schoolyear finally ends and summer is near. Im being a paranoid here! Christmas vacation was just over duh!! The lessons are crazy just like me. Im lost. Heavily. So now what do I do? No really, what??
Uh…?

Uhm… I think im gonna have a career in comedic acts. Oh my… first of all check out the new template of my blog!! The beauty of ownership!! Ehee,,, but there’s no pix yet. I am yet to learn how to! It’s also in my feel good color, stylistic black! Uhum!! Now I seriously believe I can be a comedian. I barely recall the no. of times I made my classmates and friends laugh.

Anyways, what made me smile or smirk is this certain group of friends… let’s not name them!! It all started with their goal to have one t-shirt, all of the same design. Sort of like a uniform… then after that, for Christmas someone gave the 17? Or less a belt that had all the same design. As if it wasn’t enough, they all wore the same huge pearl bracelets given again as a gift. I just wondered what would they looked like have they decided to wear the same t-shirt, belt and bracelet? Hmmm.. Food for though yan. Ay! They also have the same flurry and hairy kind of ball pen. And yep, they all use it! Cute noh?!

Friday, January 06, 2006

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People! Just dropped by to say hello to everyone who happened to pass by my blog!!!

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Those who want to relive the undying love and tragedy of Romeo and Juliet may come and watch the play at AFT Theater on January 14 that’s a Saturday…. and continues until February 19… im not sure! It starts yan yuzon and irina feleo and is directed by Steven uy. Their will be a gala night on Jan. 12 wherein pupil and sponge cola who sang the play’s theme song “Gemini” will have a mini concert after the play.

Please support it.

For those who are part of the sponge cola mailing list. You are all entitled to a discounted ticket just type blah blah blah….. to blah blah blah….. that’s it

I feel reticent doing this, honestly. Oh well… I hope you watch! It’s very promising.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Post script! Post script!

I know this is kinda late but let me at least retaliate everything and everyone that made me stay alive this year.

The start of 2005 was not good, in fact it was even the worst year ever in my life. The 1st quarter and half of the second was full of anger, sorrow, pain and anguish.
Many changes had to be done. Some hurting me and some hurting other people but then these changes have just to be made. Like its stimulus or whatever you call it.

But then it wasn’t all pain and tears cause slowly now im regaining everything that has been taken away from me. They might not be the same things but I can safely say they are equal in value or even more. I can now swim the ocean without choking and fear of drowning. I can now leave the island halfway to be able to go somewhere else. I was able to overcome so many things and im grateful for that.

I know the world has to move on and I have to go with it but before that, I want to take this opportunity to mention some people and things that I believe had somehow helped me reached this point of serenity and tranquility in my life now. Without them, I guess my metamorphosis wouldn’t have been completed and I molded.

Uhm… I guess the best person to start with would be my mom. She has always accepted and forgiven me inspite of everything (and when I mean everything, god know what these things are). She never fails to teach me life’s lesson and I would always be grateful for that. No matter how strict she is, behind that façade is a true mom who would always love her child-no matter what life brings. Dad comes next cause though he is desserts away, he never fails to check-up on me.

Friends (kim, mela, najee, dane, ryan, the whole psalms). They had always made my day a whole lot better with their crazy antiques and weird quirks. They are always the person you can count on whenever, whichever. That’s for sure. I believe that life always gets better when you have someone near you. I’ve never been wrong.

My family that includes lola and the loving uncles and aunties and psychedelic cousins and my pamangkins. I love you simply for giving me money when I need them most. For bringing me my favorite shoes and clothes. Haha!! Joke!! Ofcourse, for the most of my life, you’ve never been around but I hope that someday we’d be together and never part again. Hmmm.. maybe in 5-6 years time… to my pamagkins,, haayy… when I grow a little older and I’ve gotten a better job I would be able to buy and give decent gifts for you all. :)

To other people who have made 2005 a good/bad year for me, thank you still for without you my year would not have been completed. For all the lessons and experience you taught me, at least I should say thanks.

I just hope that this firedog year brings me better luck than last year. *wink*
Today, my cousins are now leaving.

Two weeks seems to have jumped off a cliff.
It was just then when they arrived from the states and we are having fun in boracay and now we just said our goodbye to each other. Hush-hush. It hurts me especially that I get to see them for only 2 weeks and we have to wait like a year again (that Is if they’re coming) or after 5 years and im not so sure if im still here either. Who knows we might all be there together heehee!

Im surely gonna miss Christian and his hyper antics…. My super gwapo cousin junior who hugged me twice and said I love you too to me. Incest here! And of course Kathleen..

I feel like crying but I don’t want to cry. There is already too much drama here and the world doesn’t need any more. I think im gonna make it but every time I remember, tears start to fall. That’s it! Im letting them fall. It happens only once in a blue moon. Im already missing them. My room now is suffering an extra huge case of flashflood.

I wish im in states already.

Monday, January 02, 2006

The best New Year

I just had the best New Year ever for a long time. I guess it’s because many of my long lost finally found relatives came back home. I was able to see my huge cousins and super kulit cousin parin plus my uncles and aunties I last saw 9 years ago.

We had lots of fireworks! Even before midnight tick tock we already finish then up. But they are safe. Free flowing watusi and poppers that looked like garlic were given to children even adults!! We even throw them at atchi lorelie who avenged by throwing some at us as well. Even uncle dado was dancing when we scratched the watusis. There was this butterfly firecracker that flies and this piccolo but it was not good the products I mean. there was also the judas belt which made my eardrums almost split. Ofcourse we also have lusis and fountains. It was soo much fun. We bought again at around 11am and all in all spend around p3500 for fireworks alone. We finish up at around 1 am and started ytaking pictures for the hundredth time around
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Date: dec. 26 2005
And I have lots of kwentos….. let’s begin

When the school was still alive.. then I hope it will never resurrect again, I told everyone how busy we all are well… the contests all went well…

The choral fest though we weren’t chosen was really good. We had practices for only 2 days but that was one hella fun. The song really reminds me of cold Christmas nights “paglamig ng hangin, hatid ng pasko… nangugulila sa king gunita.. ang mga nagdaang natin pasko….” There we were the only one who presented a very gloomy song but we got the most applause. :)

At the same time was the giant lantern making contest. We again didn’t won. What they had forgotten to tell us is that they need the most trashed-looking lantern one could ever make. I should have just stole all the wrappers and empty bottles here. But on the good side, proverbs our sister room won finally! After months of long drought…

Walk for a cause… I woke up at around 5:00 because my service said he’s going to pick me up at 5:30 but guess what? At 6:00 I was still home. Anyways arriving at the scene, I saw stalls selling yummy puto bumbong but I just couldn’t eat yet. We are walking how many meters so I might get problems… so at 7am ¼ of the entire population of my school yes! That few… walked around the commercial district of our city…. Haaayy… tiring!! While the rest was at school not sweating and catching their breath.

Xmas party… it was cool! Our class had really enjoyed the game like the card relay and funny bone eheeh!!! The human trip to Jerusalem which I took part to was really unique. We also have the year end awardees which was all for those really stupid incidents…. Next came the exchange gift that was soooo dry… then we eat! The baked spareribs and tropical chicken was realllyyy yummy!!! And after this came the most boring afternoon. I went out to give my tokens to my friends and even receive my own present given by erherm najeee!! Hehe.. Jason also gave me a peck on my cheeks and so did najee!! Ehehe… :) we also watched this battle of the bands which did nothing but to hurt my eardrums so we just have to go… at 3:15 it was time to go and see each other next year….
I must be making a fool out of myself here….

Trying to update my blog every so often huh? Nevertheless, this is what I was born to do guys so please, just bear with me!

I am currently munching on French fries and caramel ice cream from guess where... JOLLIBEE! Imagine the long queue waiting for your order to be taken and then deciding just to have it as a “take out” taena.
Somebody also stole my dream Cadbury; I left it in the fridge last night.

I went out of the house and drag my way to the nearest mall when I suddenly felt something was TOTALLY wrong!! And im very correct. I didn’t have my bag with me. Ha-ha... Goddamit! How am I suppose to go to a mall without my fucking bag!!! So I turn around once again and returned for that stupid absent-minded bag.. shit shit shit!

And upon entering the mall, I was immediately overwhelm by the great smell of coffee and rum cake.. starbucks here I come!! I didn’t mind that I only have p2ooo on my wallet which im about to regret.
Big brown box

I just finished hauling all my stuff for my Christmas cleaning. You know, dusting everything and deciding whether it meets its fate on the big brown box or the trash bin. Christmas spirit is really round the house already!!

As I opened a dusty old shoebox… there was a lot of dust obviously! And lots of papers and cards. Hmm,,, my memory box! It’s been a long time since I last opened this!!

Piles and heaps of letters and post came scrambling as the box gave away. Wow! There are soo many letters I don’t know where to start!

Then like a time warp, I began to walk down my own memory lane and started reminiscing. With each inhale of air, the environment changes and brings me back to my freshmen year and when I exhale, im my old self again.

“I'm here to love you, to hold you in my arms and to protect you. I’m here to learn from you and to receive your love in return. I’m here coz there's no other place to be.” –message in a bottle
Dec. 06
The pains of being human

Why does emotional pain can’t kill? Im tired, sicked, and exhausted from everything this world have to offer!!! We never die out of pain but sometimes like now I wish I just could! The worst pains are even sometimes those that doesn’t have any remedy… and that is not comforting to know.

And I just came to realize that happiness is filled with so many paradox we mortals can’t just ride on. It’s like for a second you are very happy but then you suddenly realize that it will not stay long or something bad is bound to happen since a good thing occurred! See? We people understand that happiness never last long, long enough for us to hold on to it. Sighs.

Why does it looks so different from here? I wish I never have to grow up man, then I really would still have laugh at 500 things/day than now at 50 or less. There always come a time when we have to chose the road to maturity or be left behind forever trapped in childhood. This I believe one of the most hardest decision ever to come to humans. Another sigh

Time is one of our greatest enemies, I believe. With us aging, everything growing old and of course everything coming to an end. Time is never enough and would never agree with us.

“It's funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception.” –Ally Mcbeal
Dec. 05
The countdown begins

My head is throbbing.

You know trying to understand this molar mass and Avogadro’s number is really mind and brain cell squeezing!! Haay,,, thank god calculator’s were made for a reason.

On top of that, I have to vocalize for our upcoming and non-progressive choral fest. Shitz! It’s always been like this! The contest was a week away and we haven’t accomplished a single thing!! Even the contest piece itself!! You know this school really sucks. Imagine we have eight sections using all precious time and energy practicing and only two would continue in the finals! How pathetic!! I am seriously considering to just back-out than to be embarssed and pressured! We also have this gigantic lantern making contest! Just because this is pampanga doesn’t mean we have to partake in these hula balopa!!
Sis. Ida morin, I know you have a very kind heart and have the best intentions for the school but I don’t want you here cause I have to walk like 5 miles on the day of Christmas party?? And with our super baduy jogging pants and centennial t-shirt!! Wow! And you treat us as if we’re all part of the justice league think spiderman, captain planet and batman!!

And, and the names of all people close to me now surfaces with their goofy grins since it’s gift-giving season once again. Sighs. That’s the reason why my head was throbbing. I am tired, exhausted and now bloked!! What more could I asked for?? Well, lola is coming home so she just provide ample moolah or I’ll scream!!
Dec. 04 2005
I have nothing to do again so im updating my blog… as usual and you know guys, I don’t really know if im making any sense here… am I? I mean I think I just ramble on and on with my stuff and endless kwentos here.. there is no profundity! Anyways, who are really those deep persons?? Huh??

Someone had told me a story about our friend who was stucked at a ministop with his friend and a group of haggard looking blood-shot eyes boys who kept saying “mamatay kana!”. Our friend was looking at them kasi and was giving them the strange and petrified look so ayun… he just wants to run away but his friend has “rayuma” so know what he did? He grabbed at the tray and prayed he wouldn’t have to use it ha-ha!!! Thankfully, he really didn’t use it. Wush!

And my interest was rouse by tanghalang ateneo’s play entitled “nasan si kaliwete?” hmmm.. Pretty pathetic if you asked me but hovering over the press release…it made me change my mind. The play talks about the urban people and the economic problems of the depression period. Well, in my opinion they could just taped what’s happening outside their gates and they could get more realistic and dramatic scenes there. Haha,, well, I think that it’s a good play and must see. Think im advertising them? Well shut it out dude!! I just happened to love the school and the topic whaha!!

“im scared…of not being with you” –a walk to remember
Non-progressive blues

Whew… one of the most hatest season of the year. This is the time when everyone is in a rush and no one knows what he or she is to do, forgets it and walks away.
This December itself, we have the following activities that are all to be held before dec. 16 when school officially closes for the holidays.

English week
Math-science week
Choral fest practices
Huge Lantern making contest- WHERE WOULD THE SCHOOL USE LANTERNS THAT HUGE!!
Tagisan ng talino
Choral fest elimination
Operation joy-MEANING BEING FORCED TO PAY MONEY FOR POOR PEOPLE
Walk for a cause-GETTING YOURSELF SWEATY AND SMELLY ON YOUR XMAS PARTY
Choral fest finals

How are we suppose to finish all these extra-curricular activities in barely 2 weeks? They must have their heads super cracked! In addition to that my dear friends, we still have the undying team-ups of assignments, quizzes, projects, research and reports to still worry about. So what’s up with this school? Earth to hfa and Ida Morin!! Heller? I don’t believe that education was liked this back then! Isn’t simplicity the way of st. benedict?

Blue Periwinkle

…hi guys…

It’s been a long time since I wrote something here…. Well ok lang ang mga happenings ngayon…

For once… advent na which means Christmas Is round the corner na!! whohoo!! Boracay bound na ako… whohoo… ang saya!!!
And sa school gosh!! Ang daming extra curricular activities ngayon!! Shino-shorten period nga ang mga subjects to pave way for them like the lantern-making contest tapos choral fest then walk for a cause pa namen then operation joy and Christmas party shet!!! By the way, we lose sa play.

Ang Christmas wish ko ay sana makapunta ako sa Disneyland Hongkong… or kahit sa hongkong lang!! may magbibigay pa ng pera sakin?? Haay… I long to shopped there…

And I really like this model ornussa cadness!! Shet!! She’s a goddess!! Ang ganda ganda niya!! And she’s just not sexy!! Toned pa ang kanyang mga muscles!! Perfect figure talaga siya!! Wow!!

I went to the paskuhan village last nov. 26 para sa annive celeb ng isang radio station and they featuring 3 bands namely hale, mymp and ofcourse!! SPONGECOLA!! Ganyan ang order of performance nila and yael’s guitar even lose a string haha!! Litte quirks,,, hehe…

And may special friend ako ngayon, actually crush ko siya!! Initials: NJ hehehe!!! Cute siya pwomise and he looked like the drummer of my fave band!! (Hamlet!)

“You cannot find true love where it does not truly exist. And you cannot hide it where it truly does.” –kissing a fool

Friday, December 09, 2005

just happened to past by,,,, hehe....

im here at our library for our research... whehehe.

we had our club meeting awhile ago and made our dummy sheet..

yun lang... waste of time talaga,,, and the choral fest is tomorrow na,,,

pray for us!!

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Blue Periwinkle

…hi guys…

It’s been a long time since I wrote something here…. Well ok lang ang mga happenings ngayon…

For once… advent na which means Christmas Is round the corner na!! whohoo!! Boracay bound na ako… whohoo… ang saya!!!
And sa school gosh!! Ang daming extra curricular activities ngayon!! Shino-shorten period nga ang mga subjects to pave way for them like the lantern-making contest tapos choral fest then walk for a cause pa namen then operation joy and Christmas party shet!!!

Ang Christmas wish ko ay sana makapunta ako sa Disneyland Hongkong… or kahit sa hongkong lang!! may magbibigay pa ng pera sakin?? Haay… I long to shopped there…

And I really like this model ornussa cadness!! Shet!! She’s a goddess!! Ang ganda ganda niya!! And she’s just not sexy!! Toned pa ang kanyang mga muscles!! Perfect figure talaga siya!! Wow!!

I went to the paskuhan village last nov. 26 para sa annive celeb ng isang radio station and they featuring 3 bands namely hale, mymp and ofcourse!! SPONGECOLA!! Ganyan ang order of performance nila and yael’s guitar even lose a string haha!! Litte quirks,,, hehe…

And may special friend ako ngayon, actually crush ko siya!! Initials: NJ hehehe!!! Cute siya pwomise and he looked like the drummer of my fave band!! (Hamlet!)
This are two of my many favorite short love stories… so im sharing it with you guys,,, enjoy!! The salty coffee really touch my heart while the goft of love is simply love at it’s best form.. haaay!!! Love..
The Salty Coffee
He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he was sonormal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, and she thought to herself, "Please, let me go home..."
Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee." Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?" He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there." While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home... Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.
That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee! Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, and then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said, "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything... Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste... But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."
Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste of salty coffee?" She replied, "It's sweet."
Pass this to everyone because love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but HOLD ON!!!!
A Gift of Love
The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.
It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark.
Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.
Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.
Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again.
"I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me."
Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day.
He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat.
Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.
On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"
The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?"
The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.
Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.

Monday, November 28, 2005

>>>All about you<<<

Write 10 things people don’t know about you

Ø mabait akong tao
Ø payat ako date pero dahil sa katamaran ay naging healthy na
Ø I don’t know how to swim
Ø I wanna learn how to play the piano and drums
Ø I am mahiyain….sometimes
Ø Ang aking puso ay napakalambot at maawain
Ø Takot akong bumaksak sa school
Ø Gusto kong maging student council officer
Ø Mahal ko ang mom ko…aww
Ø I don’t smoke…I only drink

10 things you wish to be

Ø Pass acet and study in ateneo, if not UP would do…
Ø Enter the convent and be a nun
Ø Waitress sa resto
Ø Asawa ni yael
Ø Be a pilot
Ø Bill gates then steal all his money
Ø Angelina jolie and marry brad pitt
Ø Stripper in a nighclub
Ø Presidente ng pilipinas
Ø Top notcher sa bar exam

1o things you’re good at

Ø Writing essays/poems
Ø Reading
Ø Listening
Ø Talking for hours
Ø Spending hours at the mall
Ø Sleeping excessively
Ø Eating
Ø Play basketball
Ø Studying
Ø Shouting

10 foods you crave for

Ø Chocolates all kinds except chocobot!
Ø Cakes basta anything matamis
Ø Pasta
Ø Cookies
Ø Chicken
Ø Seafoods
Ø Pizza
Ø French fries
Ø Burger
Ø Isaw and tokneneng

10 persons you love

Ø Yael yuzon and the rest of spongecola
Ø Chad Michael Murray
Ø Bradd pitt
Ø Family
Ø Bestest friends (kim, mela, dane,kate)
Ø God
Ø Cousin ferge
Ø Charity, piety and psalms
Ø Friends
Ø Daddy

10 persons you wish to die

Ø Raphael
Ø Raphael
Ø Raphael
Ø Paulina
Ø Paulina
Ø Paulina
Ø Raphael and paulina
Ø Raphael and paulina
Ø Raphael and paulina
Ø Bad people

10 things to best describe you

Ø Mabait
Ø Kalog
Ø Di plastic
Ø Masayahin
Ø Mapangasar
Ø Madaldal as in super
Ø Sweet/malambing
Ø Mapanukso
Ø Honest
Ø Very pretty and charming! Hehe!

10 places to spot you

Ø Psalms (my classroom)
Ø Canteen
Ø My room in our house
Ø The kitchen…cooking hehe!
Ø The sala; watching tv and dvds
Ø Mall
Ø Library
Ø Bahay ni kim (bestfriend ko)
Ø Moviehouses
Ø Gigs and concerts
Oct. 31 2004
Pinoy big brother and love movies!!

Napanood ko kahapon yung Halloween special ng PBB, quite hilarious ha kasi si UMA super scared kay Frankie yung guest nila. Haha! Super terrified talaga siya and even SAM! Actually, all the boys were shocked when Frankie made his 1st appearance turns out, ang mabait niya..
Then sa radio awhile ago, I’ve heard that song sung by say and SAM!! Wow! Ang ganda nung song and it’s meaning. Astig naman oh sam!! Talented talaga… yun lang..

Nagtanong sakin ang friend ko kung anong movie ang magandang iwatch and pansin ko lang, lahat ay romantic movies… haayyy!! Love talaga!! eto yung list hehe… lang magawa sa cementeryo eh.
Love actually
A lot like love- Aston kutcher here is a winner!!
13 going 30- napakawacky nito!!!
a Cinderella story-I LOVE CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY!!!
Ella Enchanted
Princess diaries 1 2
Legally Blond 1 2
Sweet home alabama
The wedding date
Bridget Jones diary
Love story-one of the saddest love story ever
Charlie’s angels 2
Lizzie Maguire
Mean girls
Confessions of a teenage drama princess
Shall we dance?
Sassy girl
Windstruck-even though I watch it hundreds of time, I always end up in tears
My crazy love-super love ko rin toh!!
Freaky Friday
Nothing hill
My best friend’s wedding
Runaway bride
A walk to remember-iyak din ako ng iyak dito!
The notebook
Message in a bottle-I love it’s story. Everlasting love
Bend in a road
Jerry Maguire
Meet Joe Black-10 times ko ng napanood and counting!!
Serendipity -1st ever movie to make me cry.. galing!!
*All my life-parang a walk to remember..iniyakan ko toh!
*Nasaan ka man-wow!! Ganda ng story. Astig siya pwomise!!
*till there was you
*let the love begin-savior thingy hehe…
>>>Band names and stuffs
Haayyy... la na naman magawa...
Mangugulo lang..
Pinoy ako...pinoy tayo...
Dalandan orange and lemons...
Mas maganda yata kung ganon ang name nila?
And pupils.. iris, pupil and cornea?? Hehe..
Cueshe... q.c. hehe... rip off is the trend nowadays...
Bakit kaya??? Bute pa spongecola... orig talaga..
Astig and lakas!!
Ako kaya... if im gonna make a band...
Anong name??? hmm...
Siguro rip-off...
Or pirated ones...
Fruit salad kaya??
Pooh bear learns to rock??
Pooh bear meets grimace the milkshaker???
Elmo dyes his hair red kaya..
Haha...
Stupid names... uhmm.. shit hirap pla magisip ng name...
Kainis!! Hmm....
Weird dapat pewo maangas...
Ewan. Zodiac psyche kaya?? Hmmm..
Parang angelpsyche... astig..
Yun nalang...hehe
“zodiac psyche” wheee...
but mas maganda yata yung “elmo dyes his hair red”..
dibah?? Parang astigan siya...
band name lang.. I just want a band
di naman kelangan tumutugtog eh!! Hehe
basta band lang,, yun na yun.
nakaraos din,,,, ang band members!!
Si Yael, Chris, Armo, Champ, Sheldon, Yosef, Conrad...
Jerome, Rico, Marc Abaya, Yanny, Ebe, Jal, bamboo, Nathan....
Sila.. haha!! Sama na si kitchie and Barbie!!
Whush—inaantok na talaga ako
putcha.. tulog na ako... inaantok ako dun ah...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
kain muna.. gutom palah ako... hehe..
kaso walang laman ref. namen... haayyy...

“kahit anong gawin.. di mo parin pansin”- mymp
Im really letting go

Im really putting the past behind my back. No more regrets and angst. I would close the seemingly open door of yesterday to bring it the new-fangled flap of tomorrow. I would leave everything where they should be. All the memories shall be tucked in inside my heart never to be opened again. Im letting it all past away. It’s gonna take some time but I know I’ll be ok. I’m drying my eyes from these tears for the last time.
Nov. 14 2005
Salamander skin

~hello guys… wala parin dial tone ang phone namin so pre-written parin ang mga entry ko ditto hehe…. Wala lang… masaya ako ngayon :0 hehe…
~king lear! King lear!! Hail to psalm’s play.. whohooo…. Astig ang aming play yehey!!! Sana manalo then choral fest naman!! Go! Go! Go!
~Hale’s next single is a tear-jerker… whohoo… and the video was so simple yet so so… melancholy talaga….. haayy… galing!!
~Yael, sayid,,, nasa paskuhan village by the 26th weehee!!! Astig… looking forward to seeing armo gosh and chris syempre pati c yshmael.. hehe!!!
~a long time friend na di ko nakikita visited me sa school.. ang payat payat niya!! Grabeh and sabi niya miss na daw niya ako.,.. uuyy…. Haha!!! Initials?? ELVQ.. : )
~hi Sam!! I really like you, if ever you’re gonna read this ok?? Love you!!! Heehee!!
~everythings going on smoothly naman noh…. Hehe… preparing for the next issue ng cor-unum.,,, teehee!!! Haayy…
~ok palang masuspend sa school naming,,, mag ce-C.A.R.E ka haha!! Parang remedial program about your discipline… sa chapel ka lang the whole day with the nuns or teachers or the principal yakking at you…. Haay.,,,, naexperience ng friend ko eh pero graduate na daw siya… heeh…
~lapit na ang Christmas.. naamoy ko na… haay… boracay na!!
~yael’s birthday is sooo near na! advance happy birthday!!! Mwahugzz….
~im studying basic accounting ngayons…. Haaya… easy lang toh for the prelims kasi puro terms pero sa susunod,,, application na naku! Patay na!!
~bakit kaya ang saya saya ko ngayon??? Haay… siguro becoz im really good now and pati kay GOD din a nakakalimot, minsan minsan nalang.. wheheh.. pero super thankful ako for all the blessings na nabibigay sa kin… yun lang.. thanks god!!!
ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION

Nov. 02 2005

Ngayon ang araw (2 years ago) when I committed the worst mistake my life!!! Haha!!!
Anniversary namen ngayon ng aking walanghiya at walang kwetang EX- BOYFRIEND!!! So that makes it an ex-anniversary din. Naks,,, dapat 2 years na kami ng mokong hehe!! Actually, katuwa nga kasi di ko pa talaga naalala!! It was only when I was watching at studio 23 tapos may commercial na “all soul’s day today-nov. 02”
Ayun, naalala ko na!! haha!! Sana nga dina kasi wala rin kwenta tong araw na ito.
Do you know how did I celebrate it? Ganito, kumuha ako ng kandila na tira nung nagpunta kami sa sementeryo at mga tuyong bulaklak tsaka ako nagtirik ng kandila sa labas ng bahay namin. Dapat nga may picture siya para kumpleto na ang setting kaya lang wala akong picture niya nasa bestfriend ko lahat baka makulam ko pa eh!! So yun, tsaka ako nagdasal na sana sumalangit nawa ang kaluluwa niya (buhay pa siya ha-kaya bga nagdadasal ako) naku, whenever I remember this date, naiinis talaga ako kasi after that nawalan n ang peace ang life ko!! But then, ngayon wala na kami,, haayy salamat!
Haayy.. so yun!!! Wala lang shinare ko lang,gusto kong magbasketball!! Wala naman ditong bola. Naks puta!! Haaayyy…
Better sleep….

Haaayy… la na naman magawa dito. Kain.labas.nood.tulog.ligo.haaayyy…. haaayyy….

Nga pala, bakit ang skyway di umaabot sa sky?? At ang hamburger walang ham na palaman?? Pero pag nilagyan ng ham ito ay magiging ham sandwich na or ham and cheese. Bakit ganoon?? Ang hotdog bat hindi gawa sa aso? mayroon din bang coldpup?? Ang mga instant coffee, titimplahin mo parin.. Pano naging instant yun? Magpapakulo ka pa ng tubig at hahaluin diba?? Ang French fries, di naman galing ng french ah.Ang mga nagja-jaywalking bakit tumatakbo? Pagnanalo ka ng milyon bakit ka milyonaryo eh isang milyon lang yun diba? Ang gulo na talaga ng mundo. Tapos ang e-vat, Value added tax na nga, extended pa…. pano yun?? Labo.
Purple Wax

Ang ganda ng song na ito ng MYMP!!

“talaga naman...nakakalungkot...
kung kailan pa malapit na mahulog ang loob
saka ka lumisan, sa aking pagtulog”

I thought it was another cover(again) but then mali pala ako...
Eh kasi naman, feeling ko hindi sila sisikat if they won’t do cover songs!!!
Pansin niyo ba yun?? Palaging covers ang hit nila syempre for the mere fact na COVER na lang sila meaning sumikat na dateh and pinapaskit nalang ulet ngayon.
So ibig sabihin, yung song and gusto hindi sila hahaha!!! Joke.
Sad thing lang kasi na mas marami pa ang cover kaysa originals diba??
Mymp! Wake up!! Joke ulet. Love ko parin silah!!!
Watch tayo nov. 18 araneta--MYMP...BEST
Actually mas gusto ko yung originals nila like get me and talaga naman....
Astig!!
Sembreak ngayon. Walang magawa dahil umuulan
U—lan hahaha ha han... sinong di mapapasayaw sa ulannn—nnnn
Boring. Hi yael! Wala lang...
Sira pala ang aking fuckin’cellphone ngayon
And walang dialtone landphone namen. Naks puta
Happy birthday sa fwends ko na si Joan Abigail Dizon
And Dainelle Mae Cunanan.... psalms rock... as always!!
King lear play-no progress... bleep....
I wanna watch sassy girl-new tagalong ver. Para aintinjan keh!!
Nga pla... nov. 02’s coming. Rusty bitch.. 2 years since ng kamalasan ko...
Nov. 22 bday ni honey ko... wheyyy....
I wanna study in ateneo—anyone help?? Easy lang ba ACET??
Haaay.. life is boring.. as in talaga... totoo na ito!!
Shit...
Nov. 17 2005

^guys, ang paranoid talaga ng nanay ko! Umuwi lang ako ng 9pm eh sobra na ang nerbyos sa kin! Eh ano ba ang pwedeng mangyari sakin ha? Sila pa ang sasaksakin ko eh! Kainis noh, feeling nila im too pa-girl not to be able to defend myself!! Huh!! Wrong term dudezz!
^harassed na talaga sa play, halos kalahati na ang nacut and still counting nyeta! Lahat ng pinaghirapan namen ay naputol or inalis,, huhu,,, wawa naman us sana worth it huhu!! And im playing a part pero minor lang siya… heeh… a pretty doctor.. yun lang 2 lines lang ang kanyang sasabihin heeh! But ok lang I have enough things to work out!
^di ko pa nakukuwento sa inyo guyz na I’ve met a very handsome chinoy… hehe… tsinitong meztiso na ang gwapo talaga… astigin!! He’s very fair and tall..athletic type and super uhm…bait! his real name is zhang qui-lun. English name is che zhang, nyan. Ang bait bait niya kahit ilang times ko plang siya nakakausap.
^something change sa isang friend ko, feeling ko iniiwasan niya ako for some reason? Bakit kaya? Hurt tuloy ako…
^nawala ang aking precious sim and di nakastore sa aking phone memory ang mga contacts ko.. oh well start all over again…. Shit naman..
^even my comb that I’ve been using since grade 4 nawala pero sana mahanap ko.. im lost without it!! Huhu…. It pains my heart na mawala yun….
^guys, sa pbb im sick of franzen na grabeh pla siya!! Bat ganun ugali nia?? Yuckers bute forced eviction na siya hahah!!!
^yael sports a sexier haircut sa una video… huuuhuu…. Celebrity cut na colored wow!
^im enjoying chemistry….saya siya….
^yael’s bday is sooooooooo near na!! wahaaaa,,,,,,
^ “with every breath im deeper into you yeah” –yael yuzon, crazy for you….

Nov. 11
Of pink swirling lollipops

*my niece, victoria... such an angel...
*ang cute ng title ko noh?? Wahaha!! Ala lang… cute siya yun lang
*tagal din na di ako nagsulat here… nagliwaliw ba heehee!!
*school is back…. Haaayy ang hirap ng balancing huhu!!! Chemistry is so hard na ha and first topic plang.. shit!!
*ay! My king lear pala is done na! final revisions nalang and the soundtrack wakeke!!! Ang saya and super fulfilled ang feeling for you to accomplish something like that..haayy.. and besides that im the scriptwriter, ako rin ang stage manager whaha.. but no idea kung ano ang work niya haayy.. sana maganda ang kalabasan… fingers crossed!!
*may tanong na naman ako… bakit ang fire exit for fire lang? wala bang fire entrance?? Para sa mga bumbero?? And ginagamit ba ang fire exit para sa mga taong nafa-fire sa work?? Hmmm…
*ang coffee break.. coffee lang ba ang pwedeng inumin?? Di pa pwedeng softdrink or mag merienda??
*hindi ko magets and ibig sabihin ng commercial ng pepsin a “there’s no sugar” kindly explain naman!! Pero natatakot ako for the person na nasa building ha… mean feat!!
*yael is so cute…. Yun lang miss ko spongecola wahaha!!
*pati si sam milby.. cutie pie.. sana Makita ko siya ng personal!! And yung sam concepcion ng little big star! Ang cute cute cute nia rin… very talented… haayy… :]
*kumain ako ng tobleron na ang expiration ay 09,2005… its nov. na ngayon… haay… sabagay.. ok lang.. chocolate parin yun.. sayang!!
*patapos na ang year…saya..sana umuwi na si daddy… bora!!!
*alam niyo kung di ako makapasa sa ateneo or di kaya ang budget… sa up nalang hehe.. mass communication or communication arts.. sana,,, pero its still god’s will..god.. ateneo/up.. kulitin ba??
*plastic people sucks.. kainis sila noh… shit! May their souls find eternity in hell
*geometry alam nio, eto lang yata ang branch ng math na magugustuhan ko,,, sana!! Teehee!!
*sana mamaintain ko na ang grades ko, if not mas mataas pa kaya im definitely studying up! Toast to that!!