When all hell breaks loose.....

MMDA naman oh!!
Kanina, when we were going home, as usual dumaan kami sa shortest possible shortcut pauwi sa bahay namin. Eh umulan kanina ng matagal edi yun expected na baha pero naku sobra when we were passing talagang parang nagkaroon ng mini-river sa daan! And yung mga canals, naku you wouldn’t even notice na meron noh. Why? Kasi lang naman, water’s overflowing with it together with all the garbage and waste. As in kalevel na ang kalye (kung meron pa nga bang kalye) ang tubig-baha. Grrr.. tas mga ibang kaskasero na driver, sobrang bilis pang magpatakbo. Kawawa tuloy yung mga very unfortunate not to have mga windows or yung di lang nila nasara in time.

*whatever happened to the drainage system of angeles city?*

UPCAT disappoints me!

Whei, never thought I’d say this but “why is upcat like that?” totally way below than what I expected it to be. Oh, I dunno. Im not going to say it’s easy because it’s not but it’s not that hard either. Maybe have I taken it during my freshman year, I would have been able to answer most of the questions. It’s not as complicated as I expected to be. Whush. Now if only my wrongs aren’t that many,,,,,,,,,, I may have a chance. You see people, I didn’t leave any number BLANK. That’s because im not a loser who takes my chances that im just gonna all leave it to fate. I would rather have all my mistakes than to leave them blank knowing I could have answered it. Anyway, it’s 50-50 chance for me.


Nescafe… for your midnight reviews.
Started reviewing for my periodic test only at 7pm. Five minutes into it made me realize that I haven’t slept normally since Friday and it’s effect is taking its toll on me now. I initially planned to start reviewing math since it’s the hardest subject for a dummy like me but I also understand that if I am to continue with such impossibility, I might need 3 days to even finish so move on to CA fil. Ok. Im really starting to get lazy na so to make the short story even shorter, I finished everything and eventually have to return to dear mama math. So, the very “pampatagal-oras” attitude went alive and kicking at the moment. I went outside to have my drug, my pain reliever, my sunshine in that gloomy night, a warm cup of Nescafe (naks, pwedeng commercial) so yun. In between drinks, thank god, finally math showed itself to me. haha. Oyun, I finished at 12:40 and then remembering what adier said to me, I placed my notebook under my pillow! Haha. At about 1am, consciousness left me. I actually planned to wake up at 4am but then I was just so tired, I woke up 5:30am. Haha.

Life Lessons from Children


From the moment I stepped in the high school grounds, I knew that my life would never be the same again. Stepping into this level means leaving out my old life and welcoming the inevitable possibility of change.
Change actually upsets me for everything becomes different and unfamiliar to you. You feel light-headed and wobbly, as if suspended somewhere in the mid-air. But then, I also know that change is essential in order to move up to higher order of things.
The fear eventually led me into more dense and hurting moments, that is to experienced real pain. This pain came from the most unlikely people, events and time. A pain that only those person who mean so much in my life, personality, heart and soul can cause. I tried to do everything and anything for them in the hope that I might find what I’ve been searching for and what specifically that something is… I used to hold on to everything I thought defined me—my memories, my friendships, my relationships—so tightly. It took so much energy, I hardly had anything left to invest in other things that matter. It was breaking my heart to leave any of it behind, but I knew some things had to go—or I wouldn’t be able to move on to my next destination. I just realize that most suffering that people experience is about the same as what you’d feel when you stick your hand on fire. It hurts like hell and you want to pull it out. But it’s amazing how often people would continually stick their hand in an emotional fire and keep it there. Now, I realize that if I’m continually being hurt, it’s time for me to do something else.
Tired, hurt and exhusted from every pain that I have felt, I challenged myself to go on a journey-the one that I believe would finally set me free.
It was a trip that i had so many times rejected. Probably, back then, I didn’t see the need for it or I was just too distracted to even hear my heart whisper these kind of things. It was tough leaving everything familiar to me not because I can’t survive without them but because I have already given them fragments of my heart. It was a tough decision but then I chose to go. Finding the destination was the easiest part since I already know where to go. Now is the perfect time for me to go back into the world of childhood and see life again in the eyes of a child. The children at the “bahay-ampunan” in our province helped me do so. And what I saw was like a well spring of refreshing energy. It’s life at it’s simple best stripped of trimmings, complexities and sophistication.
In my stay there, people would say that the children remains to be the best models we have here. I can be told that a thousand times over and I’ll never question why. These children meet life with spontaneity, creativity, a lot of purity in loving and caring. Even in letting go, we should learn from the children for they teach us to be free-spirited open and relax. With them, once more I learned how to have fun and flung all cares to the wind.
These children taught me how to forgive and forget and move on. Many times I scold and get angry at them but when I meet them again they have the same sweetness and smiles. They are not afraid to see life from other perspectives which I have been so afraid to do myself. How I wish that I still haven’t lose the capacity to dream so that happy realities can still come by. I now came to accept that failures will always be part of life. Challenges come and go to make us all stronger. Mistakes are not necessarily errors for growth is a process of trial and error. So as long as we keep the lessons, we can never have a “bad mistake”.
Suddenly because of these children, I have a map. But this time there are no signs or roads to follow. The direction is now being whispered to me gently, it was the music that finally set me free from every pain and suffering I took from the emotional fire. The song pierced through me and freed my soul, who have been imprisoned for so long. It was now clear where I wanted to be. I now found myself travelling back a familiar route: back home. The lost music finally regained it’s voice in my heart when I finally got away from my old life. Thanks to these children who helped me try to believe again like I believe when I was their age… when your heart tells you everything you need to know. Hopefully, with their accompaniment, I’d be singing it for the rest of my life.

IF SURVEYS CAN BE MAKE ME RICH. I MIGHT AS WELL BE A BILLIONAIRE!!

1.The emotion I tend to hide the most=SADNESS…

2.When I'm happy, I need=TO GET A LIFE!!

3.When I'm sad, I need=A WARM HUG, CHOCOLATES
AND TUBS OF ICE CREAM xoxo!

4.When I'm sentimental, I need:=MY MEMORY BOX AND PROBABLY
SOME GOOD OLD FRIENDS

5.When I'm in love
=I FEEL LOST BUT FOUND

6.I would jump up & down and shout w/joy right now if someone told me:
=I PASSED MY CET IN EVERY SCHOOL!

7.The last time I cried was:=JUST RECENTLY. xoxo!

8.Moment in my life whenmy emotions froze and I felt absolutelynothing:
=DON’T REMEMBER AND DON’T
WANNA WALLOW IN IT ANYMORE!

9.People who genuinely make you happy:
=DEFINITELY, THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE CLOSE TO MY HEART

10.Something that makes me happy:
=DOES PAO-PAO COUNTS AS SOMETHING?? xoxo

11.Someone or something that mademe laugh this week:
=NO CLASSES FOR ALMOST A WEEK!

12.Your Good Luck Charm
=WELL, I DUNNO EH!

13. Person You Hate Most:
=ACTUALLY, PERSONS SILA WHO DESTROYED
A GOOD PART OF MY LIFE!

14. On my desk:
=A LOT OF CDS AND DISKETTES

15. What do you notice first with theopposite sex:
=THE EYES.. OHH..

16. Last person you slow danced with:
=HAHA… WITH NAJEE BOO!

17.Makes you laugh the most
=UHMM.. CODENAME PAOLO!! xoxo

18.Makes you smile:
=SMALL INSIGNIFICANT THINGS MAKES ME SMILE THE MOST

19.Can make you feel better:
=A WARM HUG